Hi! =)

New here! My name is Jessica and I am a fad diet addict! LOL Well seriously I am. I have tried everything from Hydroxycut diet pills to the dreaded HGC (oral drops) diet. South Beach and Atkins too! I do great at first, lose weight, stick to the plan etc etc. Then one little slip up and I'm done.
Throughout highschool and college I was always very athletic. Softball, Soccer, Cheering, Ballet... you name it... I tried it. I I was also anorexic. If I gained weight, I stopped eating. At one point I was hospitalized briefly. My father was always (and still is) morbidly obese, my mother has struggled with weight since she quit smoking 15 + years ago. I swore I wouldn't end up like that. Once out of college I packed on weight, I topped off at 198 before I freaked out and joined a gym and became a workout-a-holic. I was doing great, eating right, at the gym every night after work. Although, I was miserably married to a verbally abusive idiot. Anything was better than home at that point. Long story short, I left him.... met my now husband and my happy life began. March 2003 I found out I was PG. Suddenly the fear of putting on weight was overwhelming. Yet... I was so determined to keep my baby boy healthy I ate.... and ate..... and ate. 96 pounds later I had my blonde hair blue eyed boy. My whole life revolved around him, I was so focused on being Mommy... I forgot who Jessica was. But now here we are with my oldest boy in 1st grade, playing sports. I want to help him, practice with him. But it's so hard being this big (235). Over the years I've tried all kinds of get slim quick schemes... most recently Oral HCG drops. ( in 2008 I had another baby boy... again... the center of my world. only put on about 15 pound that time) Nothing works. I have resigned to the fact that the only way I'm going to have any lasting results is through hard work. That's it. I've been going to Zumba classes and doing the dvd's at home on my days off. 5 days a week total. Now it's time to eat right.
I hope this site is all I expect it to be. I look forward to this journey.... and dread it at the same time.
wow... that was quite the ramble!!!
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Jessica