Tired of being "Pooh Sized"

Hello everyone, my name is Amanda and I'm a 31 year old SAHM to 3 little girls. I didnt realize until after the picture in my profile was taken just how much like Pooh Bear my body was becoming. I'm tired of thinking about food constantly, I'm tired of not having the energy to keep up fully with my girls. I'm tired of hating clothes shopping. I'm 5'7 and wear a size 18! I know that I shouldn't weigh this much (225) and I've started on a course to change it. A course I beat myself up over from time to time I admit (like when I decided to buy a chocolate bar and ate one serving then worked it off as fast as I could at the gym that night). My goal is to be atleast down to 195 by the time my darling husband comes home from this next deployment he's going on. One year to drop 30lbs or more so when he get's off that bus his wife looks as great as all the other ladies waiting for their Soilders.

I am lucky that I have a friend who is going to go work out with me for 2 hours every 3 days and will help me back away from the junk food in the isles at the grocery stores. I know the road before me is not going to be easy and I know I will probably break down and cry once or twice (I hope they are tears of joy when the scale starts to move in the downward direction), but I also know that I CAN DO THIS!