Pcos and dieting.

My name is Miranda I'm 24 and have been married for 4 years. Let me give you a little background on me. I have a 5 year old daughter and my husband has a 6 year old son. When we got married I had the "mirena" (iud) after thinking long and hard we decided to have it removed. My daughter was like 1 or 2 so lets say that was 3 years ago. Since then we haven't had any bc used and have had sex without condoms as we want to get pregnant. All through high school my periods where never regular, one month I would have it then skip several months. And still to this day its the same way. I think last year I had maybe 4 periods the whole year. But boy when they came it would stay for 2 weeks or longer. I went to an ob and she prescribed Provera to make my period come on but after taking for so many months it should make u have it ha not me. I was also diagnosed with PCOS which makes it even harder to get pregnant. I'm at a lose. My friends and relatives are having babies and I want to be happpy but sometimes I'm just like this isn't fair, my daughter will be too old when and if I do get pregnant that she won't be close with her sibling and that's what I want. My husband doesn't show a lot of emotion when it comes to this. And sometimes I say u don't even care if we have a baby. Knowing that he does but it isn't such a big deal to him as it is me. I mean I want it and I want it now..... a friend brought her baby by to see me and just seeing the baby made me cry. I know my husband seen the want amdnhurtnin my eues.I'm just so upset and now all day I want to just stay in bed. Signs of depression huh? My child needs me why can't I let go of this pregnancy issue and let it happen when it happens???? So today I have decided to start a diet and I'm going to loose all this wiet in order to get this pcos under control. I can't cure it but I can make it better. I need a support group so please send me a friend request.

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