HOME ALONE, ABOUT TO BINGE PLEASE HELP!

sugaspice999
sugaspice999 Posts: 164
in Motivation and Support
I'm new here, and only have one other thread from a previous 3-day binge from 2 days ago that ended horribly and I'm so close to doing it again.

I'm not going to drive to fast food places, but my parents/family are all gone and I have the entire house/pantry to myself.
PLEASE HELP ME.

I've ate my daily intake cals already, and I'm making a coffee protein pumpkin shake (~200 calories) with the calories that are left but I'm SO TEMPTED TO EAT:

-udi's granola with some cashew milk and crushed up white chocolate pieces. (THERE ARE LIKE 6 entire 100g BARS OF CHOCOLATE here :( )
-2 eggs with bread and pesto and goat cheese
-gf chips with avocado
-more chocolate
-oatmeal with tons of maple syrup, protein, granola

I still have so much studying/work to do, and really need your help to not binge because otherwise all I'm going to do is keep going back and forth between the pantry and the bathroom and the fridge. PLEASE HELP. I KNOW I NEED HELP and going for counseling next weekend, but until then I'm helpless.

I worked out today too and so far ate 1750ish calories including the shake I'm about to drink.

Thankful for the support here, please help. I had enough fat/protein/carbs today so don't know why I'm trying to binge. Maybe because of stress, but atleast my dad will be home in about 2 hours. But until then I could eat atleast 5000 cals and feel too sick/gross to miss lecture tomorrow (which I really cannot afford). I've already gained some weight from that previous horrible 3-day binge.

Again: I know this isn't normal, and I have a problem but please help until I can seek help.

Thank you so much!
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  • Marcia315
    Marcia315 Posts: 460 Member
    Step away from the pantry and go for a walk.
  • sugaspice999
    sugaspice999 Posts: 164
    But I have to study :( I've already worked out, played basketball with my brother today.
  • kennie2
    kennie2 Posts: 1,170 Member
    if you feel like you need to binge then you're probably not eating enough or not getting enough of a certain thing
  • xDawnsgrace
    xDawnsgrace Posts: 436
    go somewhere to study. A library, a park if it's warm enough, a friend's house,but don't bring money. remove yourself from the situation.
  • akd1961
    akd1961 Posts: 10 Member
    Hi

    Don't do it you will feel so bad after and you are better than that, Ive done/do it on a regular basis, on a good few days at the min. Try and do something positive, read, think about why you are doing this. And remember nothing tastes as good as skiiny feels.

    Angie
  • sarahg148
    sarahg148 Posts: 701 Member
    Can you get out of the house and go to a library to study? You need to leave and get your mind off of the food. I tend to eat when I'm bored...and it sucks because I'm not always busy with work. You have to learn to deal with your emotions in a different way other than food. If I could learn to do this myself, then I'd be about 15-20 lbs less...basically at goal weight! Maybe have some herbal tea to have something warm in your stomach and fill you up a bit. I do feel your pain...I was almost about to eat too much today because it's getting darker out sooner and colder. I have my dinner ready to go for about 8pm, then will go to bed around 11. Just keep busy!
  • Guinivere
    Guinivere Posts: 357 Member
    Can you invite a friend over to study with? Or go to a friends house to study. I usually find I won't binge in front of others.

    Your binge might be coming on because you don't want to study. Take a break first. Phone a friend for a chat, go for a ten minute walk around the block.

    Tell yourself you can have a reward after studying for two hours like a song from iTunes or a book on amazon (non-food reward)

    Respect yourself. Remember how crap you will feel if you give in.
  • mrhonesty
    mrhonesty Posts: 274 Member
    Hang in there! If your going to eat,make it something low calorie
  • 1debbie123
    1debbie123 Posts: 19 Member
    get yourself a hot air popper and pop popcorn no oil butter or salt .....3 cups is one starch exchange on TOPS exchange lifestyle...make sure you chew your food like 50 times or more...this snack goes along way and healthier than alot of those so called healthy bars. try to stick to whole foods and maybe more smaller meals over the course of the day. take a warm bath read a book and dance around the house when your up doing things....and don't be so hard on yourself ...it took a long time to put the weight on it will take time to take it off so go slow and be happy.
  • sugaspice999
    sugaspice999 Posts: 164
    Really appreciate the advice, thank you.

    I am probably missing something. Is it magnesium that leads to chocolate cravings? I'll check into it but for now even though I have to study it might be worth it to stay on the forums for 10/15 more minutes. Just drinking a little more black coffee right now and thinking about where I could go. I don't think I can even drive anywhere bc my mom took my car, which is actually food so I can't go buy food.

    I think I am eating enough, around 1700-1750 cals, I'm 121 5'6'' but was 115 pounds before my last binge. I'm still slightly bloated and retaining some water though I know I gained some fat.

    Wow, you guys are so helpful. Can't imagine what I would be stuffing my face with without the community. I'm definitely thinking about how horrible I'm going to feel if I do give in.
  • ShapenerFiterrati
    ShapenerFiterrati Posts: 111 Member
    Go into the basement, or a place super far away from the kitchen/pantry. Take a looooooong shower.
  • EvgeniZyntx
    EvgeniZyntx Posts: 24,208 Member
    1750 is not a binge.
    Likely your calories are set too low.

    Eat if you need to.
  • Barbonica
    Barbonica Posts: 337 Member
    Brush your teeth. No one likes eating immediately after brushing. Make a plan. It is ok if you go over on calories a little, but be smart about it. Eating at maintenance for a day shouldn't make you feel bad. Binging will. Hang in there, and kudos to you for getting back on the healthy lifestyle after the last time you binged. That this wonderful, and shows strength, determination, and good old fashion smarts! Keep it up
  • x2theandra
    x2theandra Posts: 2 Member
    Deep breathing to help lessen anxiety could really help!!

    http://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2013/07/22/reduce-your-anxiety-this-minute-3-different-types-of-deep-breathing/

    take a look at this site.. it gives some really good instructions.

    and this video might be a bit too hippy for most, but it really helps with my anxiety!

    good luck!

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=heQvpti4uvo
  • rileysowner
    rileysowner Posts: 8,328 Member
    Is there a library that you can go study at. Then you are out of the house and you can do your studying. I agree with the walk. Also if you like coffee, a black coffee (no sugar or cream on anything) always puts a dent in my hunger. Barring that, drink lots of water.
  • sugaspice999
    sugaspice999 Posts: 164
    Well the binge wasn't 1750, that's just my daily intake that I've already consumed today.

    I'm drinking the pumpkin shake: 1/4c pumpkin, 2 shots starbucks espresso, 1/4 c cashew milk, 1/4 scoop vanilla cookie whey, english toffee stevia, plus spices and ice. I feel pretty full, ended up drinking a whole extra cup of black coffee while I was making the shots lol.

    But seriously THANK you, awesome suggestions. I know I'm not immune to bingeing all of a sudden but the coffee really helped (unlike the dark chocolate suggestion -> leads to eating more (even the dark 90% kind))

    Also, checking out the breathing link :)

    I don't have a basement, but going upstairs to go back to studying :)
  • mockchoc
    mockchoc Posts: 6,573 Member
    Shakes are a waste of calories. You won't feel like you really ate something unless you chew it so get some carrots and nibble on them.
  • Adrian_Harper
    Adrian_Harper Posts: 1
    Go out for a 40 minute brisk walk if u can:smile:
  • KimP202
    KimP202 Posts: 68 Member
    thanks for sharing this youtube site, so interesting!
  • petitefemme_x
    petitefemme_x Posts: 1
    I may be too late BUT if you are super-duper hungry - like ravenous! I would gout for a meal with your family or friends - because you definitely eat more on a binge because you don't talk etc and concentrate on the flavours, you just devour. Eating in company makes you more reserved.

    If you find it difficult eating in front of people sometimes like moi - is there anybody, like your mum for example, who you can comfortably eat with?

    Drink LOADS of water!!!!!!!!!!! like 3 average bottles, wait 20 mins, the a cup of tea, then make yourself some pasta with cheese and rosemary etc, stodge - like 500 caloires worth - it'll be better having a scary 500 calories rather than eventually having 1000+ on crappy food.

    If it's late at night I just don't let myself. I'll have a banana or an instant chot choc and even if I don't sleep and wake up at 6am - in the morning i'm not hungry. My body seems to know now it will not get food in the evening no matter what so try start now. when you're warm in bed it's easier to resist getting up.

    STOP watching films when you're in bingey mode. Go to a friends, got to work, go to the library etc

    So in conclusion, feed yourself a proper meal if you've not eaten, stay in bed if it's late and just resist or go on your inspiration web pages if you have them like tumblr etc xxx

    edit: saw somebody mentioned the library! This is SUCH a method! I do this all the time. If i'm really hungry, but I know I've eaten a decent amount I work with no distractions
  • sugar297
    sugar297 Posts: 106 Member
    Just think how bad you will feel after you do it. do you have a lollipop to suck on instead while you study?
  • susanrechter
    susanrechter Posts: 386 Member
    you already ate. go study.
  • Guinivere
    Guinivere Posts: 357 Member
    I think I am eating enough, around 1700-1750 cals, I'm 121 5'6'' but was 115 pounds before my last binge. I'm still slightly bloated and retaining some water though I know I gained some fat.

    I don't care if I get a warning for this one, but God damn you have no right to cry about binge eating and gaining weight when you're ****ing underweight! Some of us have REAL weight problems. I may not be nearly as big as other people, but I'm 5'6" and I'm ****ing 150lbs! Nice try drama queen attention *kitten*.

    OP - You're going to have to ignore people like this /\

    Eating disorders are frightening for those suffering with them. They take control and cause people to swing from one unhealthy activity to another. It's lonely and really hard to fight on your own.

    MaiLinna This OP is obviously in recovery and trying to beat this demon. EDs are a mental illness. She's on her own and scared. Show some compassion. It's not all about losing weight on MFP, it's about learning a healthy relationship with exercise and food that doesn't happen overnight.

    Give her a bloody break!
  • ratzmom
    ratzmom Posts: 1 Member
    Get on the internet. Go to something-fishy.org. They are one of the oldest and most established sites that are focused on helping people with eating disorders. You will find a link there to "eating disorder forums always open for people with Ed". This is real. Not to be played with. People don't realize that they can end up really regretting the turns they did or did not take in the road.
  • karlospiklington
    karlospiklington Posts: 143 Member
    Sometimes something as simple as some chewing gum or a mint helps avert a binge. The mint flavour basically ruins most food so the binge food isn't worth eating anymore.
  • sugaspice999
    sugaspice999 Posts: 164
    I did it, I gave in :( I hate myself for it

    My dad came back, and I was fine until mom came home with tons of coconut macaroons that she baked at my aunts house and she needed to wrap as a gift. She even asked for help wrapping them and I resisted but when I was about to eat my (healthy) pumpkin greek yogurt, I'm thinking hmmm, wonder how that macaroon would taste on my yogurt. So I ask to try it and of course she says yes, but ends up having to leave while I'm in the middle of pouring my yogurt :( so my yogurt ended up having:

    -fat free Fage, 1/2 cup pumpkin, coconut macaroon (which tasted amazing btw), like 10 medjool dates, some pomegranate seeds, 2 giant snicker doodle cookies, 1 chocolate chip cookie, 4 pieces sea salt dark chocolate
    -bunch of stevia
    -2 tbsp granola peanut butter
    -2 tbsp coconut
    -1/2 scoop protein powder
    -honestly forgot the rest and wasn't even enjoying eating it by the end

    When they left, I was supposed to make dinner for my brother and made some for myself on top of my already 1500 binge calories surpassed intake
    -2 servings whole wheat pasta with a bunch of goat cheese, vegetables (why'd I even bother lol)
    -nutritional yeast seasoning etc
    -olives
    -greek yogurt and pesto

    -2 rolls of whole wheat bread with pesto (and I have a gluten intolerance, fml)
    -1 roll with apricot preserves and granola peanut butter
    -2 cups post greek yogurt cereal (allergic to it too) with some cashew milk and gluten free granola
    -1/2 avocado w/ gluten free jalepeno chips
    -1 cup cream coffee with some hot cocoa powder in it ( i Dont even drink my coffee with milk, so confused)
    -3 whole eggs w/ goat cheese

    They came home with dominos and 'my favorite' flavor of it
    -had the two largest slices of olive/bell pepper/feta pizza with more red pepper added
    (Literally couldn't even get up from table)
    I remember wanting to eat more cereal but didnt because went upstairs and fell asleep before I could

    Cannot remember if I had anything else but I spent like the entire night thinking about food and binging. I felt so horrible/miserable and remember feeling sick and dizzy. I had to lie down bc was in so much pain, and then fell asleep and dreamt a nightmare about not going/skipping the gym and class bc so bloated. (Responded to dad that i don't want to go to the gym in the dream. Then woke up midnight in terror of actually having sent the text and skipping.

    I really have no idea what is causing this. It's messing up my studying, my family life, my self esteem, my sleeping, and obviously my body. Probably going to gain atleast 3-4 pounds from this. I still feel a little dizzy, itchy, and bloated.

    I'm at the gym right now though and back on track, had my oatmeal and did the cardio, back and biceps

    Thank you for your support, I feel so horrible I let myself fall to my weakness. I need to be stronger!
  • Guinivere
    Guinivere Posts: 357 Member
    You can be strong hon, you can. It will take practise and you'll need to have some key sponsors in place to help you. It's an addiction. It's visceral and physical. You have to treat it like an addiction - it is THAT serious.

    You can friend me and I'll help whenever I can. Even if we talk online for ages giving you no chance or time for the binge.

    I think I have beaten my binging demon and whilst he still visits from time to time, the binges are no where near as big or bad as they used to be and I have been able to control my weight a lot more. I am going very slowly and carefully down to a healthy weight after several stressful months of binging that saw me put on over 40lbs!
  • annemariec78
    annemariec78 Posts: 1
    I can relate to binge eating...I'm 2 days out from my first bikini comp - and I was so low on energy that instead of eating 2-3 medjool dates..I basically ate the whole container....omg
  • nomorebingesgirl2014
    nomorebingesgirl2014 Posts: 378 Member
    Bump
  • Jen800
    Jen800 Posts: 548 Member
    Brush your teeth! It actually makes you not hungry, I promise. I didn't think it worked either, but seriously I don't even want to eat food for like 30 mins after I've brushed.


    Also, try to do a teeny bit of exercise! It makes you not hungry for a while (in my case)

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