i hate myself right now

Today is my 70th day on mfp. I've done pretty well with my willpower and have stayed under my daily calories most every day. If I've gone over its never been by a whole lot. But yesterday ...oh my gosh I went crazy. I don't know what happened! I ate everything I could lay hands on and at the end of the day I had went 3000 calories OVER my daily allowance. That's a total of 4200 calories in one single day. I feel terrible and ashamed of myself. I know its just one day but I feel like I've really let myself down and undone some of the success that I've worked so hard every day to achieve. How do I get over it and get back on track? And how long will it take for yesterday to be out of my system? I didn't weigh today but I feel like I've gained 10 lbs. Which I know is silly. But yesterday has really shown me how easy it is to fall off the wagon. And that really scares me.

Welcome to my world!

No matter my good intentions, there is always one day a month like this...I was a fat person because of binging and I will not be a fat person again because I refuse to be guilty over this - I feel that for me, the guilt is what makes me say "I may as well give up since I blew it". Exercising HARD the day after the binge and feeling like total POOPPPP from the sludge in your body might make you think twice before doing it again! If anything, that keeps me in line...

One day won't stop your progress if you get back on the bus and ride - you obviously didn't give up, or you wouldn't be here logging

Well around here we call that a cheat day. So yeh you cheated and you fessed up and told us about it. It's okay our relationship isn't over. We forgive you and I believe we can get past this together

LOL, don't beat youself up. It happens and you learned from it which is good. It's when you continuously do it all the time where you will start to see issues. You will be fine just get right back to your regimen and all will be good.

Hope that helps,

Cheers

Tof

^^^^^^^^ He couldn't have said it better! Just move on because you can't change it. The past is just that... the past!

Today is my 70th day on mfp. I've done pretty well with my willpower and have stayed under my daily calories most every day. If I've gone over its never been by a whole lot. But yesterday ...oh my gosh I went crazy. I don't know what happened! I ate everything I could lay hands on and at the end of the day I had went 3000 calories OVER my daily allowance. That's a total of 4200 calories in one single day. I feel terrible and ashamed of myself. I know its just one day but I feel like I've really let myself down and undone some of the success that I've worked so hard every day to achieve. How do I get over it and get back on track? And how long will it take for yesterday to be out of my system? I didn't weigh today but I feel like I've gained 10 lbs. Which I know is silly. But yesterday has really shown me how easy it is to fall off the wagon. And that really scares me.

Hi there.

Let me brush your emotions to the side for some science.

Eating 4200 calories in a single day is 700 calories PLUS 3500 calories.

It takes 3500 calories ON TOP OF YOUR TDEE to make you gain one pound of fat.

Your TDEE is far greater than 700 calories.

Thus, you will not gain one pound of fat.

Whatever the scale says, it is water weight. Get back on track, eat appropriately today, do not restrict yourself, drink plenty of water.

And Relax. Science wins in the end.

^^^^^Love this Chick

I want to thank all of you so much. You are right...all of you. It was one day. I don't think I'm normally depriving myself. I'm pretty sure ut was psychological along with hormonen (just now started TOM). However I can't blame it entirely on that because in my previous life (before mfp) I used food as a crutch for everything especially boredom. I quit doing that cold turkey the day I joined this website. I think I'm afraid of old habits rearing their ugly heads. However I don't think that is going to happen simply because it made me feel terrible. Physically and even moreso mentally. I do not want to lihis ave my life like that again. I took myself to the park this afternoon and walked 3 and 1/2n miles then drank a bottle of water. I feel better already. I CAN do this and I WILL. I know that temptation will come again and I also know that I'm not perfect and will have bad days. I am so thankful for you guys and gals and your support and encouragement. It means more to me than I can say.

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I feel like losing weight is a never ending battle that i cant beat

It happens, don't beat yourself up.

This is my experience only, so take it as that.

I could not ever hope to sustain a 1200 cal/day diet. Not even for a few weeks.

We are of similar age and situation, so maybe it might be helpful to eat a bit more?

I started out eating 1200 net 6 days of the week with one high intake day, where I set my cals to maintenance. This still got to me eventually and I have increased calories a few times, but I'm still losing (24 lb down total, 10 before MFP). You may be different though and not need as much food. I don't know.

For me, having that high intake day sure helped psychologically. It was a light at the end of the tunnel. Keeping the cals at maintenance ensures that you don't take a step backward.

Do you do cardio and/or weights? If so, do you struggle with it, getting lightheaded and weak? These are indicators that eating more may be in order.

I view sustaining a high deficit as holding one's breath. Eventually your body will force you to breathe.
Unless your TDEE is 1500, 1200 cals may be too low.

Edited for grammar.

great response, I will use that for myself as I cheated big time yesterday as well. Will you friend me?


Well around here we call that a cheat day. So yeh you cheated and you fessed up and told us about it. It's okay our relationship isn't over. We forgive you and I believe we can get past this together

LOL, don't beat youself up. It happens and you learned from it which is good. It's when you continuously do it all the time where you will start to see issues. You will be fine just get right back to your regimen and all will be good.

Hope that helps,

Cheers

Tof

Let's say it takes 2200 calories a day to maintain your weight. You ate 2000 over that. 3500 calories = 1 pound. So 2000 calories is 0.57 pounds. So yesterday you could have conceivably gained just over a half pound. You've lost 18lbs. You did not undo all of your hard work.

^^This.

Another way of looking at it is that you've lost 18 pounds in 70 days (10 weeks), which works out to 1.8 pounds a week, or an average 6300 calorie deficit per week (or 900 calories average daily deficit). You ate into that deficit by 3000 calories yesterday (OK, actually 3900 calories, because you also eliminated your deficit for that one day). That leaves you with a 3300 calorie deficit for the week, or nearly a pound loss in a week in which you had a day that feels like a total disaster.

I also agree with those who suggest maybe adding a couple of hundred calories a day and see if that helps you feel less deprived, and thus less likely to lose control. At 1500 calories, you should still be averaging slightly over 1 lb a week loss (based on losing 18 lbs in 10 weeks at 1200 calories). (Also echoing the kudos for logging yesterday and knowing exactly what you ate -- terrific job!)