What was your final straw?

Some photos of me at a party in June.
I thought I looked good. I had my nails and hair done. I had lost 10lbs to fit into a gorgeous pink dress and felt really good until I saw the pictures the following day.
I looked like a freaking marshmallow and I was the biggest person at the table. I had no neck, it was just chins and chest. I was mortified. I had no idea I was that big and that was the final straw.

Got up off my fat ar$e and went to the gym. Been losing weight ever since, it's coming off slowly but I have dropped 2 dress sizes and am the fittest I have been in years!

I had my laptop bag over my shoulder and went into the office up the 8 stairs that lead to the lobby and was out of breath for a few minutes. 8 STAIRS!!!

I was helping my brother and sister in law move to their new apartment on a 3rd floor. A lot of stairs involved, up and down, and them making fun of how out of breath I was and that I was lacking exercise. I felt humiliated and ashamed, but provided enough motivation to start my journey to healthy -- only thing I am proud of now of that particular day/moment. Now I am doing Insanity Day 26) and started power lifting squats this week! I am no joke now!

When it got to the point where I couldn't step into a dressing room without having an anxiety attack. I am not the type of person to have anxiety attacks!

I was sitting on my bed, leaning on my side, just in my bra and shorts one hot day and I noticed some cellulite on my stomach. I was in pure shock and disgust. That was a real eye opener for me. :frown:

Eh, I just thought my cheeks were looking a bit chubby, and I wanted to wear my cute clothes again. :drinker:

Sorry about the novel, but once I started writing I couldn't stop! First time I have ever told my entire story!

I have had weight troubles since a young child (thanks mum, whom I love dearly) I have always tried my hardest but as a teen I didn't know what to do and had no one to turn to. The only thing I did know is that I hate vomiting too much to try puking to loose weight. I tried to be as active as possible!

I moved away for uni and being poor changed my diet and I lost 10kgs... then drinking a lot caused me to gain them back, my heaviest at 20 was 96kg. I met my baby daddy and lost those 10kgs again. And have never seen them again. I fell pregnant at 21 and maintained my active lifestyle, coupled with morning sickness lost 11kg. I put 8kg back on during the pregnancy and still managed to leave hospital heavier than when I started! I still had poor knowledge and understanding off food and how the body uses it, and even calories! After bub was3 months I joined a gym, was breast feeding and as a textbook should read it should have fell off but it didn't. Going to the gym daily with my baby in his pram, walking along the beach and to the shops and everywhere was all part of my lifestyle, I was very active but lack of knowledge led me to obviously eating too much!
Baby daddy left I was 23, I kept active, took drinking back up and maintained a stalemate. Weighing myself wasn't important but going to the gym still was, I felt good but was still big, around 86kg still.

I started buying magazines and reading about health and exercise, and that really helped me to begin to understand what I was eating. 2011 I moved back to mum's but this time joined a gym and slowly the weight shifted but 24 years of bad habits were hard to shift. Late 2011 I got my own place and started walking everywhere again. Then early 2012 I found a sport I could do, that I loved and found some friends who motivated me! I took up pole dancing and twice a week I completed a total body work out. Around June/July I found MFP and the power of food was unleashed and I started learning what was going into my body! In July I met my current bf who was very supportive of my quest as he was on a similar journey himself. Being unemployed I focused on my family and exercise, pole, zumba, walking and a daily run as well as logging I was going great and in 3 months I lost 10kgs. At 76kg I was the lowest I had been for as long as I could remember.

Early 2013 I started full time work, a job I hated, moved away from my bf, and no time for gym, I mean I worked 8-5 and with a 4 yr old by yourself I couldn't fit it in. I managed to maintain as best I could and it took 8 months to put 10kg back on. July this year I had started a new job. Full time still but this time I get school holidays off. September school holidays saw me heading to the gym, I have started logging on here again and been trying to fit in a gym session even though I'm back at work! I have lost 5kg in one and a half months. I sometimes struggle, but a trip to Thailand 2014 and my wedding in 2015 keep my mind focused!
I guess my final straw was as a kid being teased but I as I look back now lack of knowledge really let me down ???? now my motivation is my beautiful boyfriend deserves me to be the healthiest and happiest me I can be... plus my kid deserves an active mummy and I want to look fabulous on my wedding day!!!

If you read all this thanks... feel free to add me if you like I'm always good for an email conversation ????

When I had to sit in the special fat man seat on the rides at Disneyland and even that was a squeeze! I laughed it off at the time but inside I was dying of embarrassment ????

I told myself I would never get a "belly flap" you know the little pudge under the belly button. I saw a photo of me at my sons birthday, not only was I too big for ALL my jeans, resulting in me wearing sweats, I was bigger than I was the previous year on his birthday. Cleary I could see a "belly flap". I started the next day. Now I'm getting too small for all my pants.

It was a culmination of things for me. First, my reflection on the glass doors as I walked into a store, then the not being able to fit in spaces that even big people could fit in and not being able to do activities. I was done. It was affecting my entire life, social, romantic, professional, I got pissed and now I'm working on it! 4 weeks in and I'm still pissed. I plan on staying pissed until I drop 200lbs!

BWhen my now ex cheated on me with a girl that was a lot smaller than me. First I wanted to get hotter than she was and make him want me back, and be able to blow him off. About 20 lbs into the loss, I realized I was doing it for me now not for some petty revenge. But I did run into him not that long ago and he definitely checked me out and then tried to speak to me, so I did get my revenge too! :drinker:

My mum having a stroke, seeing her struggle and knowing I could go down the same path.

Trying on clothes at the store and realizing just how big I'd gotten. Huge wake up call!

See for yourself. The picture is on my profile. And that was vertical stripes.

THIS........... love it, dont be pissed with yourself... just smash a personal best everyday