Motivation

rosestring
rosestring Posts: 225 Member
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So, with every goal I have, big or small, I seem to lack the motivation to actually get to it. Or, at least not on a regular basis. I have good days and bad days. Here are some examples that demonstrate what I mean:

1. Exercise - Sure, I'm not going to feel like it every day, but even on days when I want to, I often feel as if something it stopping me. After typing that, that statement doesn't make sense, but that's the only way I can describe it.

2. Practicing music - I play the piano and am currently trying to work on teaching myself guitar and cello. I love music, and want to make a career out of it. I KNOW that. However, I fall into the same trap as exercising. It's feels as if my mind is wanting me to fail.

3. Doing necessary tasks, such as grocery shopping. It's something that I need to do, but I keep putting it off.

So, I guess I could say anything I feel I NEED to in order to be who I want to, whether I'm in the mood or not, is blocked by some unknown fear. Yeah, everyone gets lazy from time to time, but for me it's the opposite: I only get things done on occasion. This scares me, considering that I am hoping to do to college next semester. I feel my goals (getting in shape, getting into a decent college, etc.) are realistic for anyone... Except me. Anyone else struggle with this?

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  • allym11
    allym11 Posts: 30
    Me! I know exactly where you are coming from. These last so many months, I just feel as if I hardly have any motivation at all. Even for the smallest things, its ridiculous because they are such easy things for a person to do. I know what you mean!!
  • Sinisterly
    Sinisterly Posts: 10,913 Member
    1.) How badly do you want it? There has to be something impeding you from continuing this normally. I know you said it doesn't make sense, but did you look back and try to see just how much you want this? Your perseverance to get there is what will get you there. You have to want it badly enough.

    2.) You have to want it badly enough. <-- Again, yes.

    3.) Are you suffering from depression/anxiety/stress right now? :|
  • rosestring
    rosestring Posts: 225 Member
    Becoming a professional musician (as a career choice, not necessarily a performer) and getting into shape have been my two biggest dreams for years now. I think about both goals on a daily basis and try to even make to-do lists some days (maybe I should try making a list EVERY day a habit?) to help myself get there. However, I only reach those tasks about 3 out of 7 days a week or so, or sometimes even a fourth day. I know it's possible, and I definitely have the time, it's just a matter of doing it.

    And yes, I've been suffering from clinical depression for almost a decade now, and have been in therapy/on medication for nearly a decade. I also have a lot of anxiety.

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