Diary of a College Kid

Hello all! I'm a college student in my second semester of freshman year.
Currently I am 18 years old, almost 5'10" and as of this morning, I am 189.5lbs. I've been on MFP for awhile, but I've had many distractions within the past couple months, especially with the adjustments that came with starting my first semester of college back in august. So my story goes like this:
Most of my life I was overweight and definitely the "bigger friend" and because I was taller than most kids my age, people at school usually teased me for being "gigantic" just because they were shorter and smaller than me. This continued throughout middle school and the summer after 8th grade, I decided to make a change after battling myself almost every day for many years. I was about 5'8" and I weighed about 180lbs. I ran 3-4 times a week and strength trained the other days from my own home since I was too young/couldn't afford a gym and I only needed light weights to work out. I continued this throughout freshman year until sophomore year when I hit my first plateau weighing 160lbs and I eventually gave up. By junior year, I had gained most of that weight back from a break up, anxiety, and a spiral of depression and panic disorders. I also developed anorexia and bulimia throughout my junior year. I hated myself more than anyone else possibly could. With a body builder as a older brother and an athletic older sister who was always skinnier than me, I always felt myself in competition to fit in with my own siblings. My senior year did get a little better, as prom was coming around and I was more determined than ever to look even better than I did at my sweet sixteen. I dropped more weight and probably weighed close to 165lbs and at almost 5'10", 165lbs looked healthy on my frame compared to my height at sophomore year. After prom was over, I sort of gave up and easily gained the freshman 15 at college. It was so easy to meet new people but we bonded over food and stress eating unfortunately. By the time I came home in december, I was close to 190lbs. Last week I was on a cruise with my family (and really all there was to do is eat which is regrettably what I did) and last sunday I weighed 197.7lbs and like I said as of this morning I am 189.5lbs! I never want to see the 190's ever again; though I understand my weight will fluctuate, I'm determined to be my healthiest.

So if you stuck around and read that, thank you! What I'm really looking for are college kids to add as friends who can relate to what I've been through and help share their advice about eating healthy on a meal plan. Anyone else trying to lose 40lbs, please feel free to add me! The more support/encouragement the better for everyone and if anyone has a fitblr they'd like to share, please comment or inbox me!