I'm literally terrified of what I'm about to do tomorrow...

How did you go? :flowerforyou:

I had that anxiety too the last time I signed up at the gym. It's at my work so not only was I worried about looking like a complete tool but I had the added stress of it being in front of my colleagues! But I went in anyway, gave it a red hot go and in the end I actually inspired a couple of others to join up too!
I let my membership lapse since then because I can work out at home now instead, but it's nice to know that I conquered that fear and can do it again some day if I want to.
Best of luck with your gym adventures! xx

OK I wanted to reply to this because maybe my experience might help.

I am currently 389lbs down from 434lbs - I have been counting calories since July of last year and in December I started working out at the gym.

To give you a quick rundown of my 'history' - I have tried every diet known to man and had gotten to the point where I was literally ready to die. I could not see a way out of where I was and knew that at some point surgery was going to be my only option left.

That was until I found Overeaters Anonymous - it literally saved my life! I don't mean that flippantly or glibly, I literally wouldn't be where I am today without it.

Anyway - OA changed my whole relationship with food - it gave me the healthy attitude towards food that I'd always dreamed of....the kind of relationship that I seen normal people have.

So, with that sorted out, the weight started coming off.......slow! I am averaging 1.5lbs per week which I have to say can be very frustrating. As someone who has done every diet known to man kind and always averaged around a 3lb weight loss every week it can be very hard to see it come off slowly. However, it's a trick of the mind....1.5lbs per week is exactly what I am aiming for - a slow steady weight loss.

Now in December, I decided that since I'd tackled my food issues, I really needed to get fit. I used to have such negative connotations with the gym, you have no idea! I had a life time of avoiding it because I had failed so much at it. But after starting OA, my whole mindset changed and I became a new person - my feelings towards the gym completely changed.

It's only been 2 months since starting the gym, but I LOVE it - I look forward to it now and can tell you that since December, I have still continued to lose weight on the scale SLOWLY, but the inches........boy the inches are coming off! I've lost (from memory as I don't have my iPad with me), 5 inches off my stomach, 4 inches off my gut/belly, 3 inches off my thighs, 1 inch off my arms (bingo wings are hard to get rid of lol) and 4 inches off my bust!

I cannot stress to you the difference the gym has made to my life - it is so worth it and it has literally changed my whole shape in such a short period of time.

Anyway - I know that's a lot of information and really, just take from it whatever helps.

Just remember to take everything one day at a time - the minute you start worrying about tomorrow and whether you 'might' fail, is the minute you start believing it. You can only tackle what today throws at you, so just go with that!

OK....I'm rambling now! lol.

Blessings x

I just wanted to chime in and add my support and my congratulations.

You've taken the first step... which is often the hardest one of all.

You haven't had the success you were looking for so far, but remember... a failure is only a failure if you let it remain that way. If you continue to try, then eventually, the failures will just be a part of the journey that you took to your ultimate success.

You can do this!

It isn't easy, it isn't instant and perhaps the hardest part are the people who don't get it and don't support you.

I'll never understand why people feel it is okay to make comments like the "FASTER FATTY" that you mentioned... what makes them so mean?

But, please realize that most of the people you will meet in the gym (or if you do venture back outside and walk or run regularly) will be silently pulling for you to succeed. Once they see you coming back a few times and realize that the recognize you, you might start to get some nods of recognition, and you certainly will get lots of silent support.

Will there be jerks and idiots who might heckle you along the way? Unfortunately, there probably will be. This may be the difference between thin skinned/thick skinned, but I just choose to not pay any attention to their negativity. What good will it serve?

Instead, I choose to pay attention to all the support that is out there if you dare to allow people to see you.

I was severely morbidly obese for nearly 20 years (from about 22 to about 42)... and for most of that time, I was so afraid of failure that I never even tried to get healthy. When I finally did get the courage to try, I found that people who didn't even know me were more supportive than I could imagine.

For me, my fitness exercise of choice turned out to be running... and I've been so supported by the running community that I can't describe it.

I'm going to share with you a blog post I read first when I was about 4 months into my new, healthier lifestyle a couple of years ago. It is written from the perspective of a man speaking to a woman... but if you search it out on the internet you will see that the message is universal - those who have already achieved physical fitness (especially those that came from an unfit background) generally have TREMENDOUS respect for those who are early on their journey... because they know what it takes and they truly, TRULY admire the effort you are putting out.

You can find the original if you google "flintland fat girl", and I recommend you do that because most of the comments are inspiring as well, and well worth the read.

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"Hey Fat Girl. Yes, you. The one feigning to not see me when we cross paths on the running track. The one not even wearing sports gear, breathing heavy. You’re slow, you breathe hard and your efforts at moving forward make you cringe.

You cling shyly to the furthest corridor, sometimes making larger loops on the gravel ring by the track just so you’re not on it. You sweat so much that your hair is all wet. You rarely stay for more than 20 minutes at a time, and you look exhausted when you leave to go back home. You never talk to anyone. I’ve got something I’d like to say to you.

You are awesome.

If you’d look me in the eye only for an instant, you would notice the reverence and respect I have for you. The adventure you have started is tremendous; it leads to a better health, to renewed confidence and to a brand new kind of freedom. The gifts you will receive from running will far exceed the gigantic effort it takes you to show up here, to face your fears and to bravely set yourself in motion, in front of others.

You have already begun your transformation. You no longer accept this physical state of numbness and passivity. You have taken a difficult decision, but one that holds so much promise. Every hard breath you take is actually a tad easier than the one before, and every step is ever so slightly lighter. Each push forward leaves the former person you were in your wake, creating room for an improved version, one that is stronger, healthier and forward-looking, one who knows that anything is possible.

You’re a hero to me. And, if you’d take off the blaring headphones and put your head up for more than a second or two, you would notice that the other runners you cross, the ones that probably make you feel so inadequate, stare in awe at your determination. They, of all people, know best where you are coming from. They heard the resolutions of so many others, who vowed to pick up running and improve their health, “starting next week”. Yet, it is YOU who runs alongside, who digs from deep inside to find the strength to come here, and to come back again.

You are a runner, and no one can take that away from you. You are relentlessly moving forward. You are stronger than even you think, and you are about to be amazed by what you can do. One day, very soon, maybe tomorrow, you’ll step outside and marvel at your capabilities. You will not believe your own body, you will realize that you can do this. And a new horizon will open up for you. You are a true inspiration.

I bow to you."

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And I bow to you as well... I wish you all the success in the world in your journey.

There is a lot of support here if you are able to open yourself up and receive it. Know that there are many here that are pulling for you.

I said it already... you've taken the hardest step... just put one foot in front of the other and you'll get to where you are going... it almost certainly won't be a straight line, but it is a rewarding journey worth taking.

Namaste.

Ted

Have you ever considered just walking and counting cals until you feel confident enough for the gym?

Just remember most of the people at the gym will be in basically the same boat you are in; terrified and unhappy with the way they look and/or just trying to get healthy. You can run into the occasional A-hole anywhere, but generally people at the gym are friendly if you talk to them, but mainly just want to get their workouts in and go home.