I'm Taking Back "ME"

Hi Everyone, my name is Denise, I'm 41 with 3 boys. I am just starting out once again trying to lose weight once and for all. I just can't go another day like this. I'm tired of existing and not living my life the way I feel I should. I have around 165 pounds to lose to reach my goal. It's a lot and I feel like it will take forever but I have to start somewhere right?! Is's important to me that I succeed this time, I don't want to continue down this raod anymore of feeling hopeless and depressed anymore. I am divorced and it became final about one week ago, on Thanksgiving I found out that my ex-husband has already found a new girlfreind via through my sons, it finally came out although I had a feeling he did. Although I don't seem to really care, it does somewhat sting a bit. We were married for 20 years, you sure get replaced fast! Now I'm left feeling bad about myself and unworthy but all that is going to change as of yesterday. I can and will do this. I really like that song by Katy Perry "Firework", the lyrics are so awesome, they make so much sense to me and it motivates me to move forward, especially now, not only for showing others that I can do it but for myself and my children, they have never ever seen me thin and I want to show them I can do it. So that's my story and I'll take any motivation you all are willing to dish out, lord knows I need it. I so want to be on iBiggest Loser but so does a million other people, I'm going to make a video tape and tryout, we shall see. It's nice to be here, I'm glad I found this site. Night all.

Katy Perry's Song

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing

Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road

Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em goin "Oh, oh, oh!"

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon