About to Throw In the Towel

Okay, Yes I know my Diet goes back and forth...I do excercise, (and when i run my fat hurts..) lol i try to eat for the most part healthy. I like dr pepper and try to stear clear but have my foul ups. but for the most part i have flucuated the same dang 5 pounds for the last 2 years.
So yes, I feel as if AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

I notice though, yes somedays i go OVER my calories. and other days i am under. Its set at 1200 which i hate but dang it i want my fat to fall off not hurt so i don't want to eat back the ones i burn. but i am starting to think that is what is hendering my weight lose...................;

Okay, So I thought about just throwing the towel in but i didn't.
I upped my Calories so I only lose .5 a week. Seems slow but hey, its better than yo'yoing up and down.
I started to skip counting calories and only watch my protien cause i was told eating 100 grams of protien
will help me lose weight. but i am addicted to putting in my food, whether its bad or good

Shoot for 200g protein then.

Listen, heres the deal!
I'ts not about what food you eat and what fractions of what macros that really count.
What matters is YOUR lifestyle.
If you want to take off pounds that you put on over the past 5, 10, 15 years, i's going to take time to reverse engineer your body to do the opposite of what its taught to do.
Fix the following before even attempting weight/fat loss.

1) Sleep 7-9 hours a night.
2) Eat on a schedule everyday.
3) Manage stress
4) Nutrition (70/30)
5) Exercise in moderation

Sleep: Slow wave and REM sleep is when the body repairs itself. If you are sleeping less than 7 hours a night, you may not be reaching and utilizing this very important part of sleep. Studies indicate up to a 30% increase in insulin resistance in people who sleep less than 7 hours a night.

Eat on a schedule: The body likes homeostasis and will try to adapt to it in nearly everything you do. Eating on a schedule will help regulate specific hormones that will help your body operate better during the day. You'll have less stress, better utilization of nutrients, and once you find what works for you, you'll rarely be hungry.

Stress: Most people think of panic driven people when I mention stress. What i'm really referring to is systemic stress. Dieting too low for too long. Training too hard but not taking in enough energy. Not sleeping correctly. Not recovering from exercise fully. sure we all have stressful days but once you have sleep and an eating schedule, psychological stress tends to reduce and you generally will be in a better mood. Managing physical stress is all about eating to fuel your exercise and activity, and sleeping or taking days off from exercise to fully recover. Best means of slowly learning how you react to physical stress is to keep a journal next to your bed. First thing upon wakening, take your resting heart rate. Do this for a week to get a general reading. If you are exercising too hard and not sleeping enough, the rate will rise.

Nutrition: Eat anything you like in moderation. Period. Try to stick with whole foods 70% of the time, and 30% eat whatever you like so long as you aren't allergic. Period. Don't worry about paleo, low-carb, Keto, Atkins, SouthBeach, or any other fad diet. Most of those are complete bull**** and its unnecessary. You'll find that doing this will take the stress out of buying food. 70% of your cart should be whole foods and 30% can be whatever you like. As for macros, since you stated you like tracking food, I prefer a 40/30/30 breakdown. Beware of the pitfalls of orthorexia though.

Exercise in moderation: Unless you are a Navy Seal, you don't need to exercise everyday. Walking is a must! But as for weight lifting or pilates or spin class or whatever type of exercise you prefer, you don't have to do it every day. It's good to work out, but in a deficit while losing fat, you'll want to have that recovery time. My recommendation is to take up weight lifting 2-4x a week. Get a gym membership anywhere except planet fitness. Planet fitness doesn't offer personal trainers, nor do they have the type of equipment you can use to streamline your fat loss. In fact, they offer pizza thursdays....yep....awesome.
If you cannot afford a gym membership, hit up amazon for the following: Convict Conditioning by Paul Wade, or Dinosaur Bodyweight Training by Brooks Kubik. Both books will show you step by step how to take calisthenics, and transform your physique. they both have carefully laid out plans on what exercises to perform, as well as plans that match your schedule.


Hope that helps.

Okay, I changed it to only lose .5 a week and it is now saying that I can eat
1,630 Calories a day

Now, here's the thing. Here's the trick. Here's the MAGIC that everyone wants: just eat that. Every day. Eat that number. That's enough calories where you can eat pizza, or drink wine, or eat chocolate... everything in moderation. Just keep at that number. BUT IF YOU OVEREAT ONE DAY, try not to stress. Just pick up again tomorrow. 1630. Every day. You'll binge less. You'll be happier.

But be honest and accurate and weigh your food as best you can.