I need friends to lose more then 150 pounds

Hi everyone

I've been overweight for most of my adult life. I've done really good in the past with WW and dr. Bernstein but always gain it back with extra . The one time that I felt in real control was after losing all my weight on Berstein. I was a runner . Then I found out I was pregnant. I was sooo excited that I was going to have a normal weight pregnancy. I was very over weight for my first pregnancy and was excited to be pregnant with my healthy body. I was still running pregnant since after talking to my doctor was perfectly safe. I was registered for my first 5k run at 11 weeks pregnant. The morning of the run I started bleeding so I never made it to the 5k run . I was told that I was having a miscarriage.

People kept telling me that I shouldn't have been running bla bla bla.... And So since we wanted to be pregnant again I stopped running and doing any kind of exercise and just gave up on myself I figured if I was able to be pregnant at 220 and that I lost the pregnancy at 150 then it doesn't matter if I'm over weight.

I got pregnant 3 months after and I don't know how much I gained in that year after the miscarriage but it was a lot!!! Since I was back to my 220 by the time I gave birth

Since then I've rally had a hard time getting back to my healthy self. I'm now at 297 yikes!!!! I go to sleep afraid to not wake up, afraid to have a heart attack.

Now I'm tired of being afraid! I need to find myself again and for good and for this I know that I need some support so I would love to find new friends