Can't stick to it for more than a few days without binging!

I'm trying to lose some vanity pounds - after a big break up last year I relapsed first with Anorexia and later bulimia. Initially I lost 35 pounds very fast then regained it with the bulimia.

I'm now generally eating well but I still have a binge every days, sometimes purging, sometimes not. I really want to about 10 pounds because when I gained weight, I gained it past my 'comfort' zone. Will add my relapse wasn't about feeling fat at all, I never had body dismorphia and although I do want to lose a little weight, I would still be in a healthy bmi range. Before my relapse I had developed a healthy attitude ti food.

Now due to the eating disorder business, I don't count calories. It was counting calorie that led to it in the very beginning, and I will get obsessive about it. I know enough about food to know what to eat to lose weight healthily although I'm not obsessive over eating very healthily.

An average day of food would be;

Breakfast - bowl of fruit and fibre cereal (I don't weigh it but I know from my handfuls its approx a serving and a half because the
recommend serving isn't enough) with skim milk.
Occasionally I'll snack on some fruit or something from my graze box mid morning but I'm a very busy person so usually not.
Lunch is generally a sandwich on wholemeal bread - usually ham/cheese/lettuce/cucumber/tomato with full fat Mayo and pickle, plus a packet of baked crisps and some fruit

Those 2 meals rarely change, i don't think it's ED related but that's just how I've always eaten.
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Dinner varies but is usually healthy, some kind of lean protein, wholegrain carbs and lots of veg.
Generally followed by a chocolate yoghurt though once or twice a week I let myself have a proper desert.


I have an active life - I have 2 horses that I ride and care for daily and also do some work horses for other people. I also do an aerial silks class and a pole dancing class weekly, and try to go rock climbing every couple of weeks.

However my binges are stopping any weight loss. Sometimes I can see why I feel the urge to binge and then I can deal with that feeling or emotion in a healthy way, but sometimes I just want to eat. And I'm fed up of it and fed up of not feeling comfortable in my own skin!