I'm scared!!!!!!

Don't be scared. Be grateful you are still in a position to improve your health :flowerforyou:
Set yourself a small exercise goal, walk around the block. Then increase it a little every day increasing the times you go a day etc. Start with something achievable and expand.
I have no advice to offer regarding diet, it sounds like you have the information, you just need to act on it.

You don't have to eat boring and tasteless foods. My sister found herself in the same boat as you but she loves to eat and cook all sorts of delicious foods. Long story short, she has discovered all sorts of healthy grains to replace the unhealthy "whites" and even makes her own seeded breads and yogurt and has learned to enjoy her coffee without sugar. Fast forward a number of months later and she has lost a lot of weight and her bloodwork is beautiful. Her doctor could hardly believe her results. Her husband (another foodie) is actually loving the food too. Before this health scare she had never believed that food could affect your blood sugar and cholesterol but now the proof is in the pudding. This is only a problem now when she travels (which is a lot) but then she just sucks it up and tries to eat the best she can. She does cook a lot from scratch but a lot of the stuff she makes is simple. Explore the aisles with whole grains and check out the nutritional profiles. No one is going to succeed long term on a boring, tasteless diet. So find foods that are delicious but healthy and satisfying. Walking helps too.

I lost my beautiful young sister to diabetes in the most horrible way, (amputations, blindness, dyalisis) and have had friends who suffered the same fate. Now my diabetes is out of control and fear the worst. At first I did not take it seriously because I could eat anything and my A1C numbers were within normal parameters. But now they are high and my daily glucose level has been a rollercoaster. I am even starting to have difficulty driving at night, as my sight is blurred. For once I am taking the doctors seriously and am committed to get my glucose under control by following a strict diet and exercising daily. To say the least that is a lot easier than done as I love to eat all sorts of foods and lead a sedentary life, so even exercise is tough. To say the least, the foods the dietician has me on are BOOORING AND TASTELESS (!!!!!!), and after 20 minutes of exercise I feel as if I am about to die. I cannot overdo it, either as I have a heart condition and also suffer from hypertension. Anyone out there like me? I bet there are a bunch. Would love to hear from you.

try adding some spices and cooking sauces to the food

By the way, I didn't mean to make it sound "easy" because I know it's not. It's just not as impossible as we (I am very much including myself in this statement) make it out to be. Also, it's okay to take baby steps because it is better than nothing. If we do nothing, we get worse. If we do something, we will slowly improve. I hear you on the exercise. I'm dying after 20 minutes going slow on the treadmill too. But the alternative is worse. Remember, it's not a race and any small improvement is an improvement.

I lost my beautiful young sister to diabetes in the most horrible way, (amputations, blindness, dyalisis) and have had friends who suffered the same fate. Now my diabetes is out of control and fear the worst. At first I did not take it seriously because I could eat anything and my A1C numbers were within normal parameters. But now they are high and my daily glucose level has been a rollercoaster. I am even starting to have difficulty driving at night, as my sight is blurred. For once I am taking the doctors seriously and am committed to get my glucose under control by following a strict diet and exercising daily. To say the least that is a lot easier than done as I love to eat all sorts of foods and lead a sedentary life, so even exercise is tough. To say the least, the foods the dietician has me on are BOOORING AND TASTELESS (!!!!!!), and after 20 minutes of exercise I feel as if I am about to die. I cannot overdo it, either as I have a heart condition and also suffer from hypertension. Anyone out there like me? I bet there are a bunch. Would love to hear from you.

Hi there,

I'm sadden to learn of the loss of your sister and your friends too. It's great your reaching out for help and support here.

bloodsugar101.com-is a great online resource designed to help those living with diabetes to achieve healthier blood sugar management practices along with offering some nutrition suggestions too.

Additionally, if your interested there is a type 2 diabetes support group within myfitnesspal.

http://www.myfitnesspal.com/groups/home/1772-type-2-diabetes-support-group

You'll quickly find a lot of genuine support and encouragement from others sharing their experiences.

I AM a type 2 diabetic living a complication free life since my diagnosis in 1982.

I welcome the opportunity to help you, as you move forward, whenever possible.

I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your sister and friends.

I don't have the health problems you do but it sounds like you are trying. Twenty minutes of exercise is a GREAT start. You build on that slowly. Do the twenty minutes of exercise for a week or two then increase it slightly for a week or two then increase it slightly again, just keep going.

Speak to your dietician about the problems your having with the food. There are way to many options out there for diabetic's to be eating bland food. It might take some trial and error but you will be able to find very tasty diabetic food.

I lost my beautiful young sister to diabetes in the most horrible way, (amputations, blindness, dyalisis) and have had friends who suffered the same fate. Now my diabetes is out of control and fear the worst. At first I did not take it seriously because I could eat anything and my A1C numbers were within normal parameters. But now they are high and my daily glucose level has been a rollercoaster. I am even starting to have difficulty driving at night, as my sight is blurred. For once I am taking the doctors seriously and am committed to get my glucose under control by following a strict diet and exercising daily. To say the least that is a lot easier than done as I love to eat all sorts of foods and lead a sedentary life, so even exercise is tough. To say the least, the foods the dietician has me on are BOOORING AND TASTELESS (!!!!!!), and after 20 minutes of exercise I feel as if I am about to die. I cannot overdo it, either as I have a heart condition and also suffer from hypertension. Anyone out there like me? I bet there are a bunch. Would love to hear from you.

Sorry about your sister. You've come to the right place. Exercise, especially weightlifting, according to Dr. Oz's book, is great for blood sugar in that it forces insulin out of muscle tissue. Keep working out and managing your diet, it will get better and easier. I had so many problems that exercise has gotten rid of. Hang in there.