Gained back 7lbs..

So this is my first post on here because I'm in desperate need of some advice. I felt so in control for the first time in my life and the pounds were rolling off. I was tracking and eating 1200-1400 calories a day and exercising 5x a week. I lost about 20lbs and people were noticing. I started running and completed my first 5k.. and then my second... and then... I hit this wall. I started allowing myself a "cheat day" which turned into a cheat weekend which turned into restricting during the week and obsessing over food-- and ultimately I was so fed up that I stopped tracking and started eating everything in sight for the last few weeks.

I am at the point now where a lot of what consumes my energy and thoughts are either what I am or what I am not eating. I begrudgingly got back on the scale today and assessed the damage.. 7 solid pounds of *real weight gain in a very short amount of time (not just water weight). Overall I feel super soft and pudgy and I can tell that my body fat percentage has increased dramatically as well. I ran a 5k the other day and it was way more challenging than before. Have any of you backslid before and how did you deal with it? I really wish I could have a normal relationship with food and not be so extreme. I'm either so in control or simply reckless with my food habits/choices.



/rant. It was actually therapeutic to write that^ out and simply acknowledge my behavior as of late. Thank you.