I just want to give up for heaven sake!!!

Your profile says "When can I stop hating myself?!"

I think that's the first place you should start. Being successful at weight loss highly unlikely to happen when you come from a place of self loathing.

Do you want to change your lifestyle?
Cause your diary says you don't...fries, milkshakes, lots of processed food... Where are the veggies and fruits?
It's not enough to be in caloric deficit, you need to make correct choices

This are just suggestions, don't forget that

- reduce your sodium intake
Maybe readjust your macros (reduce carbs and increase proteins %)
- if possible, exercise in the morning. If you choose an exercise up to 40min, you don't need to eat anything before, that way the exercise will use the stored "fat"
- you can eat bread, but forget the processed white bread and choose the dark one (1 to 2 slices a day, preferably at breakfast)
- you can eat cheese, just need to choose the lean one...parmesan its not a good choice
- try to avoid pre-prepared food. Cook your food, cause it will have less salt and not healthy things
- don't skip any meals (at least breakfast, lunch and dinner)
- log your water (at least 8 cups a day - 6.7 oz each cup)
- avoid fast food (it will reduce bad fat)
- forget the sweets 6 days a week (deserts, cakes, ...., ) and one day a week indulge in ONE thing, preferable until 2pm, so you have some time to burn those calories (it will reduce sugar)
- introduce more fruit, vegetables and nuts in your diet (it will provide fibers and proteins, good to help maintaining lean mass and guarantee that what we loose is fat not muscle)
-log correctly (quickly add calories don't make you accountable. Try to log as precise as possible).

Kisses

So I watch my calories and hit my macros. I also:

- don't look at my sodium...ever
- exercise whenever I can fit it in, which is usually after my 1 year old is in bed at night
- eat bread of any colour
- eat cheese of any kind
- eat things that come out of boxes and packets
- have experimented with intermittent fasting
- never log my water, though I do carry around a 1.5l bottle
- eat fast food when I want
- eat chocolate every.single.night
- rarely eat fruit beyond a banana a day
- does peanut butter count as eating nuts??

*looks at ticker*

You don't need rules and regulations. You just need to log accurately and honestly. Create a deficit. Hit your macros if that's what you wanna do.

Your profile says "When can I stop hating myself?!"

I think that's the first place you should start. Being successful at weight loss highly unlikely to happen when you come from a place of self loathing.

So I watch my calories and hit my macros. I also:

- don't look at my sodium...ever
- exercise whenever I can fit it in, which is usually after my 1 year old is in bed at night
- eat bread of any colour
- eat cheese of any kind
- eat things that come out of boxes and packets
- have experimented with intermittent fasting
- never log my water, though I do carry around a 1.5l bottle
- eat fast food when I want
- eat chocolate every.single.night
- rarely eat fruit beyond a banana a day
- does peanut butter count as eating nuts??

*looks at ticker*

You don't need rules and regulations. You just need to log accurately and honestly. Create a deficit. Hit your macros if that's what you wanna do.