Remember the day you said enough is enough?????

11th of July 2010

I was smoking a joint on my windowsill and it just dawned on me how absolutely HUGE and disgusting i was. And i was tired of it.
I didn't want to get out of bed in the mornings, i couldn't sleep at night. and i felt like doing nothing whatsoever...after work id either get drunk or high, sometimes both, and binge like crazy. Then id go for days without eating followed by another massive binge.One time i went almost 3 weeks without talking to anyone, or talking very little to my family (who i live with), im glad though that i managed to pull through that. I hope that doest happen again any time soon. Feeling like that isnt something id wish upon my own worst enemy.

Im still not happy now, but i think im getting there

When I was preggers with my youngest son back in 2009 I was diagnosed with Gestational Diabetes, mine final weigh in prior to having Jakob in August of 2009 I weighed 215 lbs.... At my 6 week checkup I was told that my fate was already decided if I didn't lose some weight, that I would be among the many that live with Diabetes... I didn't want that for myself... That's when I decided enough is enough... Since then I have lost 40lbs and I am not stopping there....
Good Luck to everyone.... You are all strong and you all possess the ability to heal yourself and feel great... xoxo

My day was on May 1, 2010. It was my Brothers wedding and I didn't have anything to wear because all of my clothes had gotten too small. My mom went out and bought me a new outfit in the biggest size the plus size store carried and it was still tight! I was over 330 pounds although I don't know the actual number because I hadn't been on a scale in about 3 months and 331 was the last # I saw. I know I was bigger than that though. That night, I decided I was done being fat. I had been fat since I was 5 years old and I hadn't even tried to lose weight ever at least not seriously! I was 34 years old and extremely unhappy and tired and miserable. Since then in the last 8 months I have worked really hard to lose the 80 pounds I have so far and I know I have a really long way to go. I will get there because I am determined to be thin. Through the course of my journey I have lost weight, but I have also lost other things. I have lost my inability to take control of my life. I was a doormat for a husband that didn't really love me. I was a lazy mother that watched on the sidelines as my daughter was growing up without me actively involved. I do not want to be that person. Each day is a struggle to pick the right fuels for my body. I really hope this gets easier, but if it doesn't, I can live with that.

This thread has really helped me and I want to thank each of your for posting your story on here. I can't wait to read more!

The other day I realized I had finally had enough when most of my clothes were getting tight and uncomfortable. I have gained 25 pounds since graduating high school ten years ago. I can live like this anymore! My goal is 115, which is very close to my weight then. Another shocker was last summer i went to a wedding and had my picture taken with some of the other guest i had came with i didn't look like myself. I know I can do this. I just need to have a bit more motivation. I've started to set mini goals such as making a point to hop on the treadmill for 30 minutes aday and logging in here and recording what i eat. I am nervous about my job, because i work the front end counter at a drugstore now due to the bad economy. I am thankful to have a job but its junk food central up there. On stock days which is only every other week thank goodness, I have to put up all the candy at my register and the snack aisle. This will be hard to over come but I know i can do it. Good luck everyone

October 30, 2010. I went with my brother's fiance and her other bridesmaids to try on bridesmaid dresses. Her sisters are all teeny tiny. I knew I wasn't skinny, but when I measured a size 20 in my bust, I could hardly believe it! I went home and weighed myself. 184. My highest weight ever. I decided I was not wearing a size 20 to my brother's wedding. I have lost 16 lbs and enough out of my bust to be a size 14 dress. All my other clothes are now too big as well. But I have another 30 lbs to go before the wedding! I will NOT be the fat bridesmaid. My husband and I are also looking forward to starting a family later this year and I will NOT start my pregnancy 50 lbs overweight!!!!

September 3, 2010 - The first anniversary of our miscarriage. We had not gotten pregnant again and were heartbroken by our infertility. So I decided that I was going to take control of things and loosing the weight was the first step in that process. Its been a bumpy road, but I know that when we do eventually get pregnant my weight will not prevent our child from being born healthy.

I,like others, have had several "enough is enough" days. I have noticed I can stick with my resolve longer now that I'm on MFP. I love this site, and never even made the connection, but my husband did (he's so smart!), and I think he's totally right. this site keeps me accountable and gives me measurable goals, and lets me see my successes. Also, I think, because of this site I had to think about why I wanted to lose weight, my goals, my reasons. It made me realize, hey, I've got my own goals and reasons for going after them. One more thing that may be contributing to my present success, is I have a maintenance plan. Once I'm out of the weight loss phase, I have a plan for how to keep it off and not yo-yo or keep losing.

I have lost a lot of weight before, but it was actually quite a frightening experience because it happened so fast I couldn't get used to how I looked, and then when I wanted to maintain at a weight, the weight just kept coming off. at the time, I didn't know how to make the weight loss permanent, but not lose more. It was so scary. All those people telling me what to do had absolutely no advice and no help for me at that point, not family nor friends, nor professionals. I felt let down by everyone I asked for help. There was plenty of judgment though. Only my mom didn't judge me; she didn't show me where my error was, but she didn't judge me. Anyway the last time enough was enough, nobody helped me, even though it was all about these people who supposedly cared, and it was a horrific experience because at the end of the journey I was bereft. I felt lost in space. While I would never do it again, the experience was invaluable; it paved the way for this time, and made me a self-reliant, stronger, wiser person. I can say for sure I'm a woman today who will be such a good mother tomorrow because of this experience.

This time is different because nobody expects me to lose weight, even though I have weight to lose. One family member started to judge me but another family member stood up for me, and it was so nice, but even without such a blessing, I would have been fine. This time is all about me. It's been 6 years since my last attempt and I have had enough of my emotional eating, and enough extra stress on my joints, and enough waiting to start a family and enough being out of shape. I'm sick of not looking cute in clothes and feeling insecure. This time I'm not worried about what will happen when I'm done losing weight, because this time I have MY reasons for losing the weight, and I know exactly how I'm gonna keep it off and maintain a healthy weight. It's not a mad dash in the dark, if you know what I mean. This time, it's permanent because I have a goal all my own and a detailed plan to maintain. i am armed with education and experience, and my start date was 11/4/2010.

24th Aug 2009

January, 2009. I was 40 lbs heavier than I am today and the heaviest I have been in my life. I moved in with a friend who had lost 100 lbs in the previous year and I was determined to get on the same track of exercise and diet that she had been on. We really encouraged eachother, cooked meals together and worked out together. It was great while it lasted. We have both since moved for school and work related reasons, but I wish I still had her close to me for support and a workout partner.

Oh yes, I remember....after may attempts of trying to stay on a diet I found this, MFP and was really excited so I told my husband who replied with, yeah, yeah, yeah. That did it! But I guess after hearing it for 5 or more years he just could not believe me any more.