I'm in an abusive relationship.

Test
You have only three minutes to answer these questions.

1. Read everything before doing anything.
2. Put your name on the upper right hand corner of this paper.
3. Circle the word "name" in sentence two.
4. Draw five small squares in the upper left-hand corner of this paper.
5. Put an "x" In each square.
6. Put a circle around each square.
7. Sign your name under the title.
8. After the title write "yes, yes, yes".
9. Put a circle around each word In sentence no. 7.
10. Put an "x" in the lower left hand corner of this paper.
11. Draw a triangle around the "x" you just put down.
12. On the reverse side of this paper multiply 703 by 9805.
13. Draw a rectangle around the word "paper" in sentence number 4.
14. Call out your first name when you get to this point in your paper.
15. If you think you have followed directions up to this point In the test, call out "I have".
16. On the reverse side of the paper add 8950 and 9850.
17. Put a circle around your answer.
18. Count out loud In normal speaking voice backwards from ten to one.
19. Now that you have finished reading, do only steps one and two

good for you!

I'm glad that you decided to share your life story with all of us. You may not realise it but you are very inspiring. The fact that you have realised that things are not the way that they are supposed to be in your relationship is the first step. The fact that you want to leave is the second and the third is when your finally leave. Nobody should have to suffer at the hands of somebody that is supposed to love them. Whether its physical abuse, verbal abuse or any other kind of abuse. You are worth it and i am glad that you know this. You deserve so much better, you deserve to have a partner that loves you no matter what size you are. Somebody that loves you whether you are a size 8 or a size 28. Someone who is willing to workout with you, walk with you, motivate you and inspire you. Leaving a relationship is always hard especially when you have been with someone for so long. As much as you may love your partner you need to be your own priority and put yourself first. You are beautiful, and every time you need a reminder all you need to do my love is look in the mirror. You may not be where you are right now but you are making positive changes to get you to where you need to be. x

I was not able to stick to my workouts or better eating habits until I quit the crazy, negative self-talk. It is quite difficult to take care of yourself when you are hateful to yourself. It's great you were able to recognize how you were holding yourself back and then make positive changes.

This person always compares me to other girls. Always grabs my baby fat. Always picks and points to the things I am most insecure about. Constantly tells me how fat and unattractive I am. To make matters worse, this person isn't very motivating. Always says how I can't do this exercise, or when I do, how moronic I look. This is suppose to be the person I love most in the world, and they make make me feel like garbage on a daily basis. Why am I not good enough for this person? It hurts.

So I've decided to break up with this person. End this terrible relationship. It's taken years of abuse to finally come to this decision. I'm breaking up with my bad attitude and horrible outlook. The hardest relationship to end is the one with your negative self image.

From this day forward, I vow to be kind to myself. I vow to put on a bathing suit and rock it with pride. I vow to work my butt off, but not feel guilty about a cookie with my son. I earned this body by making a beautiful baby. I will never get rid of the stretch marks and I will never look like I did before, but I am finally going to start listening to my amazing husband and see myself as the beautiful sexy woman he tells me I am. I will continue to work hard, because I want to be in great shape, but it will not come from the abuse of my negativity.

“The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman is seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides. True beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul. It's the caring that she lovingly gives, the passion that she shows & the beauty of a woman only grows with passing years.”

― Audrey Hepburn