Depression & Obesity- My Story

I started suffering depression at around age 13 and gained about 20 lbs. in 8th grade I weighed about 135 but for my frame that was not a good thing. In high school I weighed about 145 and was only about 4 ft 10. Between my junior & senor year I was about 150. I had overheard a conversation about me being too fat so I started going to the pool that summer and started taking diet pills and chasing them with slim fast and lost down to 115. Drastic I know. But I felt great and that was all that mattered. I started to actually date then and met who I thought was the love of my life. I slowly started gain again and got up to 120-125. Not bad I thought. My measurements were a perfect 36-24-36. Well I dated the boy for 2 years and thought that he was "the one". When he went off to collage things were fine for a little while, but I was at a different collage and ended up breaking up. Then I was severly depressed and gained up to about 145-150. After that my self-esteem was shot. I ended up dating one bum after another. Gained up to 180 by that point. Then met my husband. I was back to wonderfull again and dropped back down to about 160. Then we decided we wanted children so I lost down to about 150 and got pregnant. Boy did I gain weight. Right before before I delivered I was 200lbs. After the baby was born I lost back down to 165. Well. I had what we thought was a bad case of post partum depression and ended up being diagnosed bi-polar w/ anxiety disorder. Started on several medications and balooned up to 230. I know...WOW that was bad. So I have been severly overweight for 7 years now. But now i'm clinically stable. And my daughter started making comments like "mom, did you know you were fat?" I felt awfull and felt like I embarrassed her. She is now showing signs of of worry because she is afraid of getting fat like mommy. She even checks food labels and will only drink skim milk. I then decided I HAD to do something. So here I am. So far I have lost 6lbs since I started on My Fitness Pal 12-26-10 and now have hope again. I CAN & WILL do this!!!! I also need all the friends I can get, so, please add me if you like. I need LOTS of support. I get support at home but need outsiders for different perspectives and accountability.