my story. from a great depression to taking back everything.

I thought id share my story in hopes of maybe inspiring others like me. Ive never even really mentioned all these details to my own friends but I thought doing this would help me to move on further. Anyways ill start with a lil intro. Im 31 yo, from So Ca, im 6ft 1 and currently weigh in at 203lbs. A little over a year ago I use to be 320 lbs. It all started when I was "happily married" in time my wife left me for someone else, it was the manner in how I found out that truly destroyed me. By finding pics and letters of her "doings" on our pc. It tore me apart on the inside and I began drinking heavily every night. I allowed myself to succumb to anger and despair as I loathed in my sorrow. Eventually I just couldnt take it, my life was upside down when I lost my wife, im not proud but it did happen, I attempted a cowardly half assed attempt of ending my life with a bottle of tequila and over the counter pills. Obviously it didnt work lol. So I awoke the next morning with a terrible headache and coughing up blood both ways, yes I deserved that. Something changed in me that way, suppose I saw what I was becoming and I wanted to avoid it at any cost. I didnt wanna be a pathetic overweight man who cries about his wife who left him. I refused. I started walking my dog but for the purpose of keeping myself busy and not overthink. Did it everyday and a few weeks later I noticed I lost over 5 lbs. Ive never exercised a day in my life so losing any weight at all was new to me. Intrigued I continued to do so but longer intervals everyday. I lost more weight and I wanted more. So I started trying to jog. I remember how out of breath I was after 10 min jogging of a very slow pace but as weeks continued I increased the pace and time I jogged. After 2 months I lost over 40 lbs. I worked out intensely with no rest day. At first my workout was motivated and fueled by pure raw anger. I worked hard as if my goal was to somehow get revenge. After about 5 months and over 60 lbs lost the anger had dissipated and everything started to become clearer to me. I was able to continue working out because I was so use to it that if I didn't I would feel depressed. I realized Iay not be able to always workout for the rest ofy life so I wanted to change my diet permanently as insurance so I dont become big again. It was very hard to lower my calorie intake permanently and switch over from fast foods to vegetables and non junk foods but o did it. Its been over a year now and I still eat well and workout. I bike, run ( I can go 6mph pace for almost an hour), walk my dog, swim, pushups situps pull ups ( never did one in my life) etc. I feel great not just because im thinner but also im healthier. I still strive to discipline myself after all I do have hidden loose skin I intend to tighten. I may not be focused on weight loss now though I wouldnt mind a few more lbs at 200 flat. Now I focus more on strength exercise... so yeah thats my story in a nut shell. Im a certainly a better person now.

I wish I can post my pics here but im doing this on my phone however I do have some in my profile. Please feel free to take a look.