calorie intake and ed recovery so confused

Ok so im kinda confused. Like they say its normal for young women to be netting 2500-3000 calories a day and especially for a 20yr old 5'4 recovering from anorexia, I should be eating that range too. I'm really active so it's more apparently. I know my body craves the increased food because I'm feeling my hunger signals return and it just calls for food. I used to be able to ignore it but now I guess I'm just giving in to my body... This makes me so stressead, like I feel guilty or a gluttony for eating beyond what I planned -.-

But Its as though when I eat more my body is "relieved" . Literally I feel it relaxing because it gets nourished.... Even if its an unhealthy chocolate bar.

But I can't get over this mentality of needing to eat so much. Its q constant battle with ky baron coz when I do I feel so guilty and anxious. My body wants all this high fat **** because I've deprived it of fat for so long but this is just crazy. What if I reach my restored weight but continue to binge and binge and binge ....