MFP kept me on track!

I have had stressors this week involving a friend of mine who is having a serious problem. Among many of my issues, I'm a codependent/adult child in recovery so having boundaries and doing what I could for my friend and taking care of myself and dealing with my compulsive thoughts, keeping my negativity in check, and staying close the the loving Higher Power of my own understanding, and keeping honest with my recovery from compulsive over eating was put to the test.

What is different this time compared with my efforts before using MFP, is that although I got off track a few times this week, I managed to post all the food I ate on my diary. That was huge for me. In my life previous to MFP, when this type of stress happened I would go to a place of eating without any thought other than what feels good in the moment and not soon after doesn't even feel good but I still ate more and more and more.

Like usual, I really didn't want to be accountable when I ate out of stress and off my program this week. But I put on my big girl pants and logged every bit of it in the diary. I have to say it is liberating to be accountable and to keep track. I'm past shame, blame, and criticism, but that is not enough. I needed to have a tool to look at what I was doing without shame blame and criticism.

Because of the diary, I am able to see what is happening, (way going over on calories and not healthy choices), and I quickly and safely can guide myself back on track.

I was able to do this because I was accountable and instead of hiding from the truth, I logged it in the diary, so it was there to help me. What I add to the mix is that 1. I'm accountable by logging it in. 2. I do not shame, blame, or criticize any of my choices, I just take note and adjust as needed when I am able and ready to do so. and 3. I can easily get back on track with MFP as my tool to see what I eat and keep track.

Before now, I was wondering what would happen when I was triggered to overeat. That's always been my downfall. This current week shows a marked improvement in my ability to regroup and stay accountable. One step at a time, easy does it. I will hit rough spots, but that doesn't have to stop me.