WILL I GAIN WEIGHT?PLEASE HELP?

Holy crap I feel so guilty right now.I started off the day healthily,steel cut oatmeal (water + blackberries) (170kcal).an apple,some boiled red beans and plain greek yogurt for lunch (220kcal).And after lunch was when the culprit began luring me into eating unhealthily.I ate a packet (6 pieces) of jacobs high calcium (81kcal),a mini sunmaid raisin (42kcal) AND 8 nabisco reduced fat wheat thins (64kcal) all while reading a book.My god I tend to have better control of myself at night when I don't snack but I usually snack the most during the day.I felt so guilty I only had 2 boiled egg whites and some sugar snap peas for dinner and that's it. I feel so guilty will I gain weight??I really don't want to gain back the weight I've lost,plus I don't usually have crackers but when I do,I can't stop.God I think I'm gonna throw them all away for good.
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  • shellsy0424
    shellsy0424 Posts: 127 Member
    Please don't think I am being rude but i honestly think you may need help. Has anyone ever mentioned that you might be dealing with an eating disorder?? I felt sad at your post and could actually hear the panic you are feeling. It can't be a good feeling and I honestly think you need help. What you ate was nothing, literally nothing and you can not gain weight from an extra 200 calories or whatever it is. Don't worry, but please consider talking to someone.
  • pkw58
    pkw58 Posts: 2,038 Member
    Hey OP! I think 'boxed foods" like wheat thins are something I just can't keep in the house. I think the hardest part of maintenance the first year for me was adding more calories back to my food plan. So instead I really worked on what I was eating and why. I had my basic maintenance plan of 1200 calories down - plenty of lean proteins, greek yogurt, bright and colorful Vegetables. I added an avocado and/ or banana and/or dry roasted unsalted nuts to make sure I had the energy and fat. I add strawberries and citrus fruits as well to my food plan, or try to eat tomatoe or a big freshly made serving of pico de gallo to my food. I eat whole eggs - there are so many nutrients in egg yolks that contribute to feeling good.

    A really good book to read on how to eat enough is "Ballet Beautiful" -- I highly recommend it to all women, any age.
  • _Zardoz_
    _Zardoz_ Posts: 3,987 Member
    Holy crap I feel so guilty right now.I started off the day healthily,steel cut oatmeal (water + blackberries) (170kcal).an apple,some boiled red beans and plain greek yogurt for lunch (220kcal).And after lunch was when the culprit began luring me into eating unhealthily.I ate a packet (6 pieces) of jacobs high calcium (81kcal),a mini sunmaid raisin (42kcal) AND 8 m*****f*****g nabisco reduced fat wheat thins (64kcal) all while reading a book.My god I tend to have better control of myself at night when I don't snack but I usually snack the most during the day.I felt so guilty I only had 2 boiled egg whites and some sugar snap peas for dinner and that's it. I feel so guilty will I gain weight??I really don't want to gain back the weight I've lost,plus I don't usually have crackers but when I do,I can't stop.God I think I'm gonna throw them all away for good.
    Your post screams that you need to speak to someone about your relationship with food. I would go and see an appropriate medical professional to discuss this
  • aneary1980
    aneary1980 Posts: 461 Member
    Holy crap I feel so guilty right now.I started off the day healthily,steel cut oatmeal (water + blackberries) (170kcal).an apple,some boiled red beans and plain greek yogurt for lunch (220kcal).And after lunch was when the culprit began luring me into eating unhealthily.I ate a packet (6 pieces) of jacobs high calcium (81kcal),a mini sunmaid raisin (42kcal) AND 8 m*****f*****g nabisco reduced fat wheat thins (64kcal) all while reading a book.My god I tend to have better control of myself at night when I don't snack but I usually snack the most during the day.I felt so guilty I only had 2 boiled egg whites and some sugar snap peas for dinner and that's it. I feel so guilty will I gain weight??I really don't want to gain back the weight I've lost,plus I don't usually have crackers but when I do,I can't stop.God I think I'm gonna throw them all away for good.

    As per your other posts you have a BMI of less than 17 you need help you need to see a doctor asap.

    I doubt you are actually 18 and this is not the place for you.
  • ChrisM8971
    ChrisM8971 Posts: 1,067 Member
    Holy crap I feel so guilty right now.I started off the day healthily,steel cut oatmeal (water + blackberries) (170kcal).an apple,some boiled red beans and plain greek yogurt for lunch (220kcal).And after lunch was when the culprit began luring me into eating unhealthily.I ate a packet (6 pieces) of jacobs high calcium (81kcal),a mini sunmaid raisin (42kcal) AND 8 m*****f*****g nabisco reduced fat wheat thins (64kcal) all while reading a book.My god I tend to have better control of myself at night when I don't snack but I usually snack the most during the day.I felt so guilty I only had 2 boiled egg whites and some sugar snap peas for dinner and that's it. I feel so guilty will I gain weight??I really don't want to gain back the weight I've lost,plus I don't usually have crackers but when I do,I can't stop.God I think I'm gonna throw them all away for good.

    As per your other posts you have a BMI of less than 17 you need help you need to see a doctor asap.

    I doubt you are actually 18 and this is not the place for you.

    +1

    Please speak to a professional soon
  • JazmineYoli
    JazmineYoli Posts: 547 Member
    I'm looking over all of your previous posts and it has been stated multiple times that you need to seek a doctor. PLEASE LISTEN!!! You are eating way too little, and you seem to think you will gain weight if you go over your calories just a little for the day.
    Honestly stop creating the same posts and seek a professional. I hope this is not coming across rude, I'm just trying to be honest.
  • I agree..x
  • Myhaloslipped
    Myhaloslipped Posts: 4,317 Member
    Agreed with the above posters. Please seek help.
  • DawnieB1977
    DawnieB1977 Posts: 4,248 Member
    Holy crap I feel so guilty right now.I started off the day healthily,steel cut oatmeal (water + blackberries) (170kcal).an apple,some boiled red beans and plain greek yogurt for lunch (220kcal).And after lunch was when the culprit began luring me into eating unhealthily.I ate a packet (6 pieces) of jacobs high calcium (81kcal),a mini sunmaid raisin (42kcal) AND 8 m*****f*****g nabisco reduced fat wheat thins (64kcal) all while reading a book.My god I tend to have better control of myself at night when I don't snack but I usually snack the most during the day.I felt so guilty I only had 2 boiled egg whites and some sugar snap peas for dinner and that's it. I feel so guilty will I gain weight??I really don't want to gain back the weight I've lost,plus I don't usually have crackers but when I do,I can't stop.God I think I'm gonna throw them all away for good.
    Your post screams that you need to speak to someone about your relationship with food. I would go and see an appropriate medical professional to discuss this

    Indeed. Sounds like your daily total was around 800 calories. How on earth will you gain weight on that? I think my 3 year old eats more than you do, and she's slim.

    Please get some help.
  • zoeysasha37
    zoeysasha37 Posts: 7,088 Member
    It would be very unlikely that you'll gain weight from that, but I certainly think you need help. That's not a normal relationship with food. Like others said, get help.
  • SezxyStef
    SezxyStef Posts: 15,267 Member
    Hey OP! I think 'boxed foods" like wheat thins are something I just can't keep in the house. I think the hardest part of maintenance the first year for me was adding more calories back to my food plan. So instead I really worked on what I was eating and why. I had my basic maintenance plan of 1200 calories down - plenty of lean proteins, greek yogurt, bright and colorful Vegetables. I added an avocado and/ or banana and/or dry roasted unsalted nuts to make sure I had the energy and fat. I add strawberries and citrus fruits as well to my food plan, or try to eat tomatoe or a big freshly made serving of pico de gallo to my food. I eat whole eggs - there are so many nutrients in egg yolks that contribute to feeling good.

    A really good book to read on how to eat enough is "Ballet Beautiful" -- I highly recommend it to all women, any age.

    you should get help too I think...maitenance of 1200 and below? if you really think you are maintaining on that buy a food scale and double check.

    Did you add up her calories? It was probably 650 at most...

    OP get some help.
  • gcdn
    gcdn Posts: 42
    Okay okay guys take a chill pill.I am RECOVERING from an eating disorder SLOWLY by increasing my calorie intake SLOWLY because I don't want to shock my body with a huge amount of food at a time.Basically I'm at 800 cal per day now and I'm increasing it to 900-1000 in the next two weeks or so.Please don't look at the older posts because I do realise I have an eating disorder.Honestly,I would REALLY RATHER eat 200 cal worth of avocados than 200cal worth of crackers.Im just having a hard time accepting the fact that I ate so much of unhealthy food at once.Sigh.
  • fayelobeck89
    fayelobeck89 Posts: 105 Member
    Okay okay guys take a chill pill.I am RECOVERING from an eating disorder SLOWLY by increasing my calorie intake SLOWLY because I don't want to shock my body with a huge amount of food at a time.Basically I'm at 800 cal per day now and I'm increasing it to 900-1000 in the next two weeks or so.Please don't look at the older posts because I do realise I have an eating disorder.Honestly,I would REALLY RATHER eat 200 cal worth of avocados than 200cal worth of crackers.Im just having a hard time accepting the fact that I ate so much of unhealthy food at once.Sigh.

    Although others have addressed that you really could do with professional support on your weigh issue, whether that be to gain or loose, you need to realise that under eating is more likely to make you put weight on that you would if you went over yor calories... The idealistic daily intake should be 1200 calories minimum, you're 18 years old and still growing, you may not realise it but you are. Your obviously proud of your body, that's why you have a picture of your stomach as your DP so realise that if you go over it's not the end of the world. If you continue to under eat daily, your body will start to store more fat as a reserve because it won't know when it's going to get it next. Bodies love fat and must have some. Maybe a trip to the doctor to discuss your eating habit and relationship with food would help you understand a bit better, rather than going it alone and asking strangers on the internet if yor minuscule amount of food would make you gain weight. I'm surprised your not ill eating that little amount of food each day when you consider your age.
  • fayelobeck89
    fayelobeck89 Posts: 105 Member
    Hey OP! I think 'boxed foods" like wheat thins are something I just can't keep in the house. I think the hardest part of maintenance the first year for me was adding more calories back to my food plan. So instead I really worked on what I was eating and why. I had my basic maintenance plan of 1200 calories down - plenty of lean proteins, greek yogurt, bright and colorful Vegetables. I added an avocado and/ or banana and/or dry roasted unsalted nuts to make sure I had the energy and fat. I add strawberries and citrus fruits as well to my food plan, or try to eat tomatoe or a big freshly made serving of pico de gallo to my food. I eat whole eggs - there are so many nutrients in egg yolks that contribute to feeling good.

    A really good book to read on how to eat enough is "Ballet Beautiful" -- I highly recommend it to all women, any age.


    you should get help too I think...maitenance of 1200 and below? if you really think you are maintaining on that buy a food scale and double check.

    Did you add up her calories? It was probably 650 at most...

    OP get some help.

    I agree....
  • dopeysmelly
    dopeysmelly Posts: 1,390 Member
    I echo the sentiments about making sure you are getting professional help. It's not really what you are eating, but your emotions, particularly feelings of guilt, and behavior which sets off the alarm bells and makes everyone here want to help.

    As an aside on the "what you are eating" part, unless your doctor advises otherwise, perhaps make sure you are getting adequate protein and fat, particularly earlier in the day for breakfast and lunch (for adults - 1g protein per lean body mass, 0.35g fat per pound body weight). That way, whatever happens later in the day, at least you are fueling your body with a good chunk of what it needs.
  • OMG Sweethart! You're scaring me. I just had a conversation with my sister about this this other day. She lost 40 lbs in a month and is eating less than 500 calories a day, and I'm terrified that she's going to end up in the hospital. What's even worse is she lives in Florida and I'm in Mass, so I can't be close to her to even try to help, not that I'm any kind of a professional or anything, but I couldn't certainly drag her but to somebody who could. So your post cuts close to home. Please get help.
  • OMG Sweethart! You're scaring me. I just had a conversation with my sister about this this other day. She lost 40 lbs in a month and is eating less than 500 calories a day, and I'm terrified that she's going to end up in the hospital. What's even worse is she lives in Florida and I'm in Mass., so I can't be close to her to even try to help, not that I'm any kind of a professional or anything, but I could, certainly, at least attempt to drag her butt to somebody who could. So your post cuts close to home. Please get help.
  • shellsy0424
    shellsy0424 Posts: 127 Member
    an eating disorder is not something you could have had last week but not this week. You need MEDICAL attention. Real professionals to help you. Honestly I hope you get the help that will truly get rid of your ED.
  • auddii
    auddii Posts: 15,357 Member
    I think a lot of the people here are saying get help, but what they actually mean is that you should speak with a therapist who specializes in eating disorders. While you might be on the road to recovery with your eating habits, you clearly are still having anxiety about food. It will take time to deal with, and it seems like most people with an ED can't deal with it on their own. Hopefully you are speaking with a therapist and getting help.

    And no, your cracker eating habits will not make you fat.
  • xmichaelyx
    xmichaelyx Posts: 883 Member
    I am RECOVERING from an eating disorder

    Having read your post, you aren't *recovering* from anything -- you have a full-fledged eating disorder.
  • Followingsea
    Followingsea Posts: 407 Member
    Okay okay guys take a chill pill.I am RECOVERING from an eating disorder SLOWLY by increasing my calorie intake SLOWLY because I don't want to shock my body with a huge amount of food at a time.Basically I'm at 800 cal per day now and I'm increasing it to 900-1000 in the next two weeks or so.Please don't look at the older posts because I do realise I have an eating disorder.Honestly,I would REALLY RATHER eat 200 cal worth of avocados than 200cal worth of crackers.Im just having a hard time accepting the fact that I ate so much of unhealthy food at once.Sigh.

    If you are panicking over eating this 'much', you aren't eating 800 calories a day (you are way under), and you aren't in recovery.

    Please, seek help for this. Eating disorders can be fatal.
  • beamer0821
    beamer0821 Posts: 488 Member
    if you are feeling guilty about what you just posted about then yes i would be afraid of gaining the weight back. because its hard to make healthy choices for ourselves when we are in the midst of beating ourselves up.

    take a deep breadth. don't keep trigger foods in the house. and don't deprive yourself at your next meal to "make up for it" that's a bad cycle to start. move on from your "snack" eat a nice healthy rounded meal for your next meal and move on.

    no one gained ALL their weight back from a few snacks. but "feeling guilty" thats a problem worth exploring
  • jmmurray203
    jmmurray203 Posts: 13 Member
    You won't shock your body by eating more unless you have been a prisoner of war and only fed bread crumbs for the past year or something like that. If anything your body is already being shocked because it is being underfed, malnourished, and possibly metabolizing muscle.

    It sounds like you should consider visiting a dietitian.
  • LeenaJean
    LeenaJean Posts: 276 Member
    Seriously, I think you need to talk to someone. To me this has the makings of an ED.
  • EngineerPrincess
    EngineerPrincess Posts: 306 Member
    No one can recover on their own from an eating disorder. You need professional help whether you want it or not, or it could claim your life. I wish that was an overstatement but it's not.
  • itsbasschick
    itsbasschick Posts: 1,584 Member
    you didn't eat "so much" unhealthy food at once. you ate a small amount of not particularly unhealthy foods. 100 calories of crackers or 100 calories of avocado adds up to 100 calories. second, carbs are healthy, normal to eat and your body is designed to use them. the "avoid carbs" thing is pretty much a fad diet unless you have diabetes or something like that. heck, i have diabetes and i eat carbs AND lose weight.

    if you're eating more than you expect, your body is probably smarter than you as you need more calories than you're currently eating. you're basically starving, and can add 300 to 400 calories to your day without hurting yourself or getting heavy. really.
  • really??? -.-..... im struggling here not to eat the oreos i have hidden in my closet....i had fried chicken today so my azz is on the tredmill while my bf is asleep. its okay to eat unhealthy everyone slips. just exercise it off. easy. (cries as legs start to hurt)
  • missiontofitness
    missiontofitness Posts: 4,059 Member
    really??? -.-..... im struggling here not to eat the oreos i have hidden in my closet....i had fried chicken today so my azz is on the tredmill while my bf is asleep. its okay to eat unhealthy everyone slips. just exercise it off. easy. (cries as legs start to hurt)

    I doubt your working out at night and eating fried chicken today compares to the OP having an eating disorder. You're comparing apples to oranges. Please read the previous posts. You're encouraging her ED behaviors by saying "it's okay to eat unhealthy. Exercise it off" when she still under-ate and did not eat "unhealthy" foods.
  • efwolfcub
    efwolfcub Posts: 99 Member
    Okay okay guys take a chill pill.I am RECOVERING from an eating disorder SLOWLY by increasing my calorie intake SLOWLY because I don't want to shock my body with a huge amount of food at a time.Basically I'm at 800 cal per day now and I'm increasing it to 900-1000 in the next two weeks or so.Please don't look at the older posts because I do realise I have an eating disorder.Honestly,I would REALLY RATHER eat 200 cal worth of avocados than 200cal worth of crackers.Im just having a hard time accepting the fact that I ate so much of unhealthy food at once.Sigh.

    Read your post several times - where's the "unhealthy food"? Didn't see any. keep in mind - a comatose person burns more than 800 calories a day doing nothing more than lying in bed and breathing. at 800, whether it's 800 calories of celery, 800 calories of bacon, or 800 calories of twinkies, you're still at a tremendous deficit. Talk to someone about your eating disorder.
  • p_emmel5
    p_emmel5 Posts: 39 Member
    Okay okay guys take a chill pill.I am RECOVERING from an eating disorder SLOWLY by increasing my calorie intake SLOWLY because I don't want to shock my body with a huge amount of food at a time.Basically I'm at 800 cal per day now and I'm increasing it to 900-1000 in the next two weeks or so.Please don't look at the older posts because I do realise I have an eating disorder.Honestly,I would REALLY RATHER eat 200 cal worth of avocados than 200cal worth of crackers.Im just having a hard time accepting the fact that I ate so much of unhealthy food at once.Sigh.

    At least you realize you have an eating disorder. That's the first step to fixing it. Any disorder/ obsession is a continual battle to overcome. Professional assistance is just another weapon in the battle for you to utilize. There are very few people that fix their addictions/ disorders on their own. My advice is right there with the majority of replies.... see somebody but you might also want to add a nutritionist. Not that you don't eat healthy already, but to help you understand food isn't your enemy (even the food you deem as bad). The experts can correct me if I am wrong, but too thin is just as damaging at too heavy. The health issues are just in a different category especially for young women.

    And in response to your OP: No worries, you won't gain weight with the occasional extra items you mentioned. I know with any type of disorder the little things can be huge, but in the situation you described there in no way you would gain an ounce. Now, if you said you went crazy with a couple thousand extra calories we might agree that you might gain an ounce or two.

    Remember: Remember to strive for "Fit". Is the best look/ lifestyle for all of us, no matter if we start our journey over or under weight.

    Best of luck to you and please keep us posted with your battle :wink: