I feel like a horrible person... :(

I don't think you should have apologized, it probably was him. At the same time, I think you're being silly . . . I feel like "OMG I'm depressed and can't handle the smell of chocolate right now" is some serious diva behavior.

I've struggled with depression my entire life. I refuse to be on medication for it because I hate the way it makes me feel. I have periods that can last anywhere from a few days to a few months where I just feel like I can't handle it anymore. I have to force myself to crawl out of bed. If it weren't for my husband, I honestly don't know if I would get out some days.

I haven't felt like this since I started my diet a year ago. The last few weeks have been harder and harder to get through and the last week I felt like I was drowning every single day. I started to notice that I was eating more and more chocolate to the point of "needing" it when I woke up.

There have been numerous studies showing that some people's brain react to chocolate similarlly to drugs. For some people chocolate is like taking a drug. I started realizing that I craved chocolate hoping it would pull me out of the depression. Of course it never did, after a temp "high" I felt worse than before.

This behavor is not healthy. In order for me to get past it, I need to avoid my "drug". I decided last weekend, no more chocolate until I kick this and get back to normal. The smell of chocolate was too much for me when my mind did nothing but scream for it nonstop and something inside me kept saying "chocholate will make you happy".

It's like trying to quit any addiction, having it near you and being able to smell it can be triggering. I don't think it was too much to ask for him to keep his candy at his desk.

You're throwing the responsibility for your actions on someone else.

And if you're really treating chocolate like a "drug" and an "addiction" then your first step (like in rehab) is to take responsibility for your actions. You hold the power over yourself and not anyone else. Don't want the smell of it around you, then chunk it. It may be polite form for someone else to comply with your request, but in reality they are under no compunction to do so.

I don't think you should have apologized, it probably was him. At the same time, I think you're being silly . . . I feel like "OMG I'm depressed and can't handle the smell of chocolate right now" is some serious diva behavior.

I've struggled with depression my entire life. I refuse to be on medication for it because I hate the way it makes me feel. I have periods that can last anywhere from a few days to a few months where I just feel like I can't handle it anymore. I have to force myself to crawl out of bed. If it weren't for my husband, I honestly don't know if I would get out some days.

I haven't felt like this since I started my diet a year ago. The last few weeks have been harder and harder to get through and the last week I felt like I was drowning every single day. I started to notice that I was eating more and more chocolate to the point of "needing" it when I woke up.

There have been numerous studies showing that some people's brain react to chocolate similarlly to drugs. For some people chocolate is like taking a drug. I started realizing that I craved chocolate hoping it would pull me out of the depression. Of course it never did, after a temp "high" I felt worse than before.

This behavor is not healthy. In order for me to get past it, I need to avoid my "drug". I decided last weekend, no more chocolate until I kick this and get back to normal. The smell of chocolate was too much for me when my mind did nothing but scream for it nonstop and something inside me kept saying "chocholate will make you happy".

It's like trying to quit any addiction, having it near you and being able to smell it can be triggering. I don't think it was too much to ask for him to keep his candy at his desk.

You're throwing the responsibility for your actions on someone else.

And if you're really treating chocolate like a "drug" and an "addiction" then your first step (like in rehab) is to take responsibility for your actions. You hold the power over yourself and not anyone else. Don't want the smell of it around you, then chunk it. It may be polite form for someone else to comply with your request, but in reality they are under no compunction to do so.

I feel like I'm fully taking responsability for my actions. I realize that I'm using chocolate to control my emotions, that's me, no one else. I found chocolate right outside my desk triggering so I asked my coworker to move it to his desk and I asked him not to put any on my desk because I'm trying to cut out chocolate (didn't go into why). When it was on my desk this morning I overracted and was a b!tch about it.

That's all me. No one else to blame. Even this funk I've been in making me feel like I do is my fault. I need to just learn to snap out of it and move on but for some reason I can't. Again, all my fault.

You asked someone else to comply to your demands. They didn't and instead of moving the chocolate yourself you dumped candy on someones desk because they left a bowl of it on yours. Then instead of just apologizing to the person for the overreaction you made a thread on mfp asking if you were a horrible person to justify what you had done (or not, don't know what you were thinking here).

While you're realizing chocolate is a trigger is a good step, these other things don't count as taking responsibility for yourself.