Anyone else afraid to lose weight?

I can relate. I am used to being fat. I think the biggest struggle I have had in the past once I start making changes is the psychological part. When I start loosing fat, I look in the mirror and almost get scared or something. It's really quite disturbing.

My worry is more that once I see I can lose a bunch of weight, I won't know when to stop. I've lost 27 pounds so far and for awhile I was happy when I looked in the mirror, but it seems like I feel as fat now as I did when I was 27 pounds heavier. I'm a little OCD, so I'm afraid that I won't be able to let go of the reigns once I get to my "goal weight".

This is something I wonder how many people are going to struggle with.

Not only do I understand, I think we are twins LOL. I started the diet yoyo at 10yrd old also and of course with that came the deluge of you don't want to be fat, you’re going to be fat blah blah. I in all reality I stayed a good weight of 150 thru high school, when I say reality I mean that was not horrible. In about 1989 I was up to 260 lbs and was going to get married and wanted to be thinner and was able to lose 80lbs before my wedding. But as a fat person I gained it back plus some and carried the weight around reaching over 300 until 2000. When I made the worst mistake of my life and had gastric bypass, Oh I know what you’re thinking but didn’t you lose weight. Of course I did. I lost 150 in 1 yr and looked great or at least that is what I was told. BUT I looked in the mirror and still saw the fat girl. I was also very insecure about how everyone was paying good attention to me. By that I mean, wow you look great, and I did not even recognize you, then the guys started flirting with me. As a fat lady all my life it was overwhelming. I got very depressed and then the health issues started year after year I was in the hospital with complications from the bypass. It was the worst 5 yrs of my life in and out of hospital. I began to gain the weight back and actually began to feel better inside more secure and comfortable. I got back up to 263 lbs physically I felt like crap but emotionally I was back to being secure and comfortable with myself. Well 11 yrs post bypass and I have stabilized health wise and I decided it was time to lose the weight again. The demons of being thin were definitely haunting me, but I knew health wise I wanted to be healthier and live a more active life. Well I have lost 92 lbs and sneaking up on my goal weight each day. Everyone I have surrounded myself with is very supportive of my goals. I think the most important thing is that I have figured out how to be comfortable thin. I will be 50yrs old in 2 yrs and I think being older and wiser has helped as well. I hope you can make it to the other side and find a healthy comfortable weight for yourself