Eating disorder? help PLEASE

You're very beautiful, with a gorgeous body! That being said, it sounds like it is some type of eating disorder perhaps. Check to see if you can find a community group that helps with this sort of thing, or any way to get a subsidy to help pay for a doctor. Definitely avoid many of the anorexia websites - often they're triggering and there are some "pro" eating disorder opinions there. Try some self-help books from the library maybe, or read on the internet. Good luck! If you need anything, message me!

I'm in musical theatre... and in the performing world there is CONSTANT pressure to lose weight. I have been surrounded by many girls and guys fighting their own bodies through eating disorders. I have had an eating disorder before.. it becomes a competition with yourself and is an awful awful thing to deal with. You need to find it in your heart to allow yourself to do those things that feel bad.. like eating a small meal.. or having a treat every so often. It's an addiction. I'm sorry to say that it never entirely fades - but there are things you can do to cope with that voice inside ya. Coming out and asking for help is a really really great thing to do!! Add me if you ever want to talk!

I have no advice as I have no personal experience with this, but I will tell you- you are very beautiful and from the looks of the pics, I don't see any needed weight loss.. Good Luck!

Throughout the process I have become really obsessed with calorie counting, exercising, fasting, detoxing, bingeing, and purging.

This is an eating disorder. Please go seek help from a professional asap before it becomes a bigger issue. Please don't trust that anyone here on this forum is qualified enough to help you.

becoming obsessed with counting calories is one thing but purging is a complete other....

Babygirl....you do need to get help!! Before its too late....You look amazing now but don't you want a healthy inside to go along with the goregous body your Rockin????

PMs welcome if you need to chat.....(((hugs))) Please talk to someone tho

Throughout the process I have become really obsessed with calorie counting, exercising, fasting, detoxing, bingeing, and purging.

This is an eating disorder. Please go seek help from a professional asap before it becomes a bigger issue. Please don't trust that anyone here on this forum is qualified enough to help you.

This. Use any available resources to help yourself. Search for consultation regarding your lifestyle. You are not the only one in this type of situation. This is a classic case of an eating disorder.

She wants to - her post said that she can't afford to do so. She clearly doesn't want this to become worse, but I don't think she has too many options unless she can find free or discount healthcare! :frown:

She does have options. There are places out there for people who cannot afford medical care and do not have insurance. There are also many help lines for people with eating disorders, they should be able to give you information to find help in your area.

@believetoachive: This is a SERIOUS issue. Unless you are a trained professional, giving her ANY advice (beyond possible resources to where she can get real professional help) is just idiotic and irresponsible.

***I have no idea how I double posted all that.

I at one time was exactly where you are at right now. I was bulimic. I purged, and purged, and then made myself throw it up. I did this on a daily basis but when I was stressed I did it more. I hid it well too until one day my husband caught me. He told my dad and stood beside me while I sought help. Although we are divorced now I will never forget him doing that for me. If you can't afford a psychiatrist then I suggest talking to a preacher or just someone you can trust. There are many sources out there that are either free or income based. Try your local MHMR. If they can't help you they can direct you to a place that can. As far as nutrition, you can find that online or with friend here on MFP. That's what we are all here for. Please for your sake get some help. It has been years since I stopped but I still struggle on a daily basis. Especially now that I have put on a lot of extra weight. I am so blessed t have my family, friends, and God to see me through it. I did it and I know you can too!

talk to your doctor. It will be good for him to be aware of your situation. He will also be able to direct you to some free or low cost therapeutic resources. Eating disorders are often based in anxiety. They also sometimes "kick in" when you are reducing calories and exercising ALOT. If you can find some non-exercise, non-food ways to relax (like a book or a bathor a very SLOW walk outside), that might be a good first step. Forget the weight loss journey for awhile (I know you don't want to hear this). You have made GREAT progress by becoming worried about it yourself and also by sharing it on here. It isn't the purging and the calorie counting I am worried about. I am worried about all the nasty things that you are saying to yourself that causes you to purge or exercise incessently..... Now, please share this information with your doctor. he may be able to prescribe an anti-anxiety medication that can get you in a better mindset to get healthier all around. Maybe I am naive, but in Canada, when a patient doesn't have money for medication, the docs sometimes give samples. It couldn't hurt to ask!

Ideally, eating disorders are best treated with a multi-disciplinary team of doctor, psychiatrist, nutritionist and psychologist. If you can find a free clinic with this approach. You will be in good hands. Good luck! you are already on your road to recovery. But it is a long one. Take care.
I hope no one snaps at me for providing some advice. I am a trained professional.

She wants to - her post said that she can't afford to do so. She clearly doesn't want this to become worse, but I don't think she has too many options unless she can find free or discount healthcare! :frown:

@believetoachive: This is a SERIOUS issue. Unless you are a trained professional, giving her ANY advice (beyond possible resources to where she can get real professional help) is just idiotic and irresponsible.

Woahh woah, calm down there. I suggested exactly that to her, along with some other ideas for helping her addictive personality, such as self-help books or community group meetings. No need to be name-calling, that's inappropriate.

She wants to - her post said that she can't afford to do so. She clearly doesn't want this to become worse, but I don't think she has too many options unless she can find free or discount healthcare! :frown:

@believetoachive: This is a SERIOUS issue. Unless you are a trained professional, giving her ANY advice (beyond possible resources to where she can get real professional help) is just idiotic and irresponsible.

Woahh woah, calm down there. I suggested exactly that to her, along with some other ideas for helping her addictive personality, such as self-help books or community group meetings. No need to be name-calling, that's inappropriate.

You overact. I'm totally calm.

I just disagree that she doesn't have other choices besides this forum. I think this could quite possibly be the worst place for someone like her to get information. Also, I'm not calling you names. I'm saying ANYONE that isn't very familiar with ED's is irresponsible to say they can help her.

She wants to - her post said that she can't afford to do so. She clearly doesn't want this to become worse, but I don't think she has too many options unless she can find free or discount healthcare! :frown:

@believetoachive: This is a SERIOUS issue. Unless you are a trained professional, giving her ANY advice (beyond possible resources to where she can get real professional help) is just idiotic and irresponsible.

Woahh woah, calm down there. I suggested exactly that to her, along with some other ideas for helping her addictive personality, such as self-help books or community group meetings. No need to be name-calling, that's inappropriate.

You overact. I'm totally calm.

I just disagree that she doesn't have other choices besides this forum. I think this could quite possibly be the worst place for someone like her to get information. Also, I'm not calling you names. I'm saying ANYONE that isn't very familiar with ED's is irresponsible to say they can help her.

Who said this forum is the only place for her to get help? There's no need to be calling ANYONE "idiotic" - everyone is trying to help this girl and you should respect that.

And fyi, there's no overreacting, lol. But it comes off as snippy, so I figured I'd throw it out there. There isn't a need to be calling anyone names or such. Just help others and be nice, and they'll return the favour