Hello from Misery.

Hello All I am totally new to MFP, but defintely not to weight loss and the struggles that everyone faces. I stumbled across MFP as I was browsing through apps on my phone and it looked interesting. I had already downloaded a calorie counter but was looking for something a little more comprehensive. Man I think I may have found it. So anyways back to my intro.

My name is Hillarie. I am married and have 2 beautiful children, Aaron 7 and Madison 4. I have always been on the heavy side. I was never slim like my sisters. I felt left out and fat most of my life. I did cross country and track in high school and I loved to run. I think I still would if I could get the nerve up to try. I'm going to start the couch to 5k soon!!! I got to my heaviest while pregnant with my son. I was put on bedrest from about 20 weeks on. He was born 8 weeks premature so I didn't care about taking care of myself after his birth I just had to be by his side in the NICU every chance I had. He came home 5 weeks later. I concentrated on taking care of him and not myself until he was about a year and half old and started to finally putting my nose to the grind stone to lose weight. I was strictly counting calories and recording workouts and got down to about 159 for a week. Maybe a little more but not likely. I soon discovered I was pregnant with my daughter and ballooned right back up to 215! The day I left the hospital I weighed 213 and up until a couple months ago it didn't budge no matter what I tried. I'm now hovering between 195 and 205. I have a pair of jeans from my sona 2nd birthday party that I loved and they are my goal jeans. I have a picture of my son husband and myself wearing them at the party on my fridge. I will win this battle once and for all.

Ok so I ramble. I'll shut up now. Thanks for being here!