I almost made myself puke... please help
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I don't even know why, but tonite I ate a huge bag of chips (the whole bag, I couldn't stop) and then one and a half chocolate bars. I couldn't stop eating. I seem to do this every weekend. My stomach hurts and I feel like I'm going to burst open. I was stressed out and just wanted to eat - half way through the bag I knew I wasn't hungry anymore but I kept eating because I didn't want to be tempted by the rest of the bag tomorrow.
My stomach hurts and I went to the bathroom. I stuck my fingers down my throat - and then I stopped. I couldn't bring myself to do it because I know I would feel too ashamed if anyone knew what I was doing. Usually I'm the one people turn to for advice.
I don't know what to do. Would making myself throw up just once make me bulimic? Does anyone have any advice?
My stomach hurts and I went to the bathroom. I stuck my fingers down my throat - and then I stopped. I couldn't bring myself to do it because I know I would feel too ashamed if anyone knew what I was doing. Usually I'm the one people turn to for advice.
I don't know what to do. Would making myself throw up just once make me bulimic? Does anyone have any advice?
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Dont get on that slippery slide. You do it once and its easy to start doing.. It will make you think its ok to eat a bag of chips, cuz I can make it come right back up.
Just consider this falling off the wagon and start tomorrow fresh.0 -
Dont get on that slippery slide. You do it once and its easy to start doing.. It will make you think its ok to eat a bag of chips, cuz I can make it come right back up.
Just consider this falling off the wagon and start tomorrow fresh.
Very well said. Don't do it just start fresh tomorrow.0 -
I don't even know why, but tonite I ate a huge bag of chips (the whole bag, I couldn't stop) and then one and a half chocolate bars. I couldn't stop eating. I seem to do this every weekend. My stomach hurts and I feel like I'm going to burst open. I was stressed out and just wanted to eat - half way through the bag I knew I wasn't hungry anymore but I kept eating because I didn't want to be tempted by the rest of the bag tomorrow.
My stomach hurts and I went to the bathroom. I stuck my fingers down my throat - and then I stopped. I couldn't bring myself to do it because I know I would feel too ashamed if anyone knew what I was doing. Usually I'm the one people turn to for advice.
I don't know what to do. Would making myself throw up just once make me bulimic? Does anyone have any advice?
I couldn't sleep so I came down and binged on 3 gram crackers with peanutbutter and jelly and a whole salad. Now the chips sound good too.0 -
I say lesson learned. Maybe next time you want that bag of chips you will remember the aweful stomach ache! I have done this too and now I know that anything like that in excess causes me to feel horrible and I avoid it at all costs.
I do not think making yourself throw up once will lead to an ED. Years ago when I had way too much to eat I had to throw up just because I was so grossly sick but never allowed myself to eat that much or throw up like that again.
Brush yourself off and hit the exercises a little harder tomorrow.0 -
Hi, I'm definitely no expert but I myself have struggled with emotional eating or over-eating triggered by stress etc.
It's a really hard process to change but now instead of turning to food when I'm stressed or angry or frustrated or sad, bored whatever the case may be I "soothe" or "comfort" myself through other means like taking a hot relaxing bath with epsom salts and lighting candles and listening to music. Or I call a friend or family member or sit and talk with my husband about what's bothering me. Or I blow off steam by getting in a good workout or going for a walk.
It's really difficult to re-train your brain on how to actually deal with your emotions instead of eating them
I hope this makes sense. Try to be more kind to yourself & more patient with yourself. Listen to your body and don't be afraid to feel your feelings and work through your emotions instead of eating to numb yourself or zone out.
I hope that helps somewhat!
Take care of yourself! :flowerforyou:0 -
Just get back on track tomorrow and maybe try to work out a little bit more tomorrow! And next time you are tempted to binge eat try and remember how crappy you felt!0
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I did that tonight with a bag of white chocolate covered pretzels0
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been there, had a greasy sandwich and fries and when I got home I throw it up and then I realized that my body didn't want it ether it was all in my head that I wanted to eat that, It helped me a lot learning that. listen to your body0
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I feel like such a fugly tool And my tummy really hurts. Most of all I feel ashamed. This happens every weekend.0
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Just start fresh!! everybody has set backs. the day before yesterday i sliped up. i ate two tacos and two gronola bars and i kept sneeking food to eat off and on and i was sooooo tempted to throw up but thats not the example i want for my daughter. keep strong. Having set backs only make you stronger and should boost you up to wanting to lose that weight.
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I used to do that too, eat until I felt sick and was ashamed of myself. I would sneak food too when others weren't eating. And emotional/stressed out eating was the worse. Then one day last November I came across an magazine article about eating disorders. Compulsive Overeating being one of them. Every symptom they listed set off warning bells in my head and my thoughts were "that's me" to all of them. I then went to the library and picked up some books, one of them called "why can't I stop eating" and I started going to Overeaters Anonymous meetings.
Sugars and fats cause an addictive reaction in our brain just like drugs and alcohol do. That's why it is so hard to stop eating them.
For me, the best thing has been abstinence. I don't eat anything with sugar. No junk food. No fast food. Nothing with flour in it either. It's has been over 3 months since the last time I had anything like that. The first week or so was very very hard but I knew the only way to stop the cycle was to stay away from those things.
As each day has gone by I feel better and better. Yes, I still have cravings but have found healthy alternatives. When/if the day ever comes that I give into those cravings and have something I shouldn't I know I will get right back to being abstinent and I will forgive myself.
YOU CAN DO IT!0 -
i know how you feel being the one everyone else turns to, its hard to ask for help,
but i had a very similer issue tonight, i lost my keys and i still cant find them and all i wanted was to have milk and cookies, but ive noticed posting for help works, im really proud of you for posting. Its ok to mess up sometimes, dont beat yourself up0 -
The best advice I can give you is this....don't buy the chips and chocolate. If they are in the house, you will eat them. I have to totally leave that kind of stuff at the store. It is a lot easier to leave it there than to leave it alone once it's at your home.0
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I used to binge everyday after school in middle school. I was bullied at school and eating felt like the only escape. Most of the weight I have now is a result of that.
We can't do this anymore, eating till we feel like we're going to burst, feeling ashamed. It has to stop, we need to be happy.
Last week I had a bunch of friends over and my dad ordered pizza. I meant to eat one slice, but somehow I ended up standing in my kitchen alone scarfing down another 2 pieces that I didn't even want. People came over again tonight and we got pizza, but I remembered how I felt before, and just made myself something else to eat. When I get stressed or fight with my family, all I want to do is eat. People think fat people are just lazy and that's why they gain weight, but it couldn't be more wrong. So many of us are hurting and don't know how to stop.0 -
My DH wanted a pie last night, and we had a frozen one, so I baked it for him and when I wanted it, I instead made myself a smoothie with frozen fruit and greek vanilla yogurt. That really made me feel like I had something special and I was so full afterwards!! I think the trick is to be prepared, track everything you eat...if you bite it, write it and this site has really helped me with that!0
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Making yourself sick isnt a very pleasant experience. It hurts your stomach and diaphram for days after and makes you think you've injured yourself. And the act of puking is putrid and disgusting. I think you end up feeling more disgusted with yourself than if you just ate the crisps and chocolate and just left it. (I'm speaking from experience here!)
I'd say its not worth considering. I really dont understand how bulimics put themselves throught that 3x day! But obviously it's a mental illness as well as a physical act.
I've obviously binged (I think most people with weight issues have?), but its usually a one off every now and again, as I just dont like the feeling of being that stuffed. If its that regular, perhaps you should join a group for binge eaters? I know they exist on the internet. You will probably find more help there?
Good luck, I hope you can sort it out :flowerforyou:0 -
I hope when you wake up this morning you feel better. I have been where you are, just this week, and binging is never fun. But don't start the throwing up thing, its not good for your body or spirit. So you freaked out and ate a bunch of food. Its not the end of the world. It doesn't make you a failure, it won't make you gain 20lbs, as long as its a one-time thing. Or even an every once in a while thing. ((HUGS))0
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Thanks everyone for your support. It means a lot.0
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Once is all it takes. I used to barf on a regular basis in highschool, but it honestly catches up to you, which is why I'm so fat right now, LOL.0
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I agree. I have made a commitment to myself that I would log everything I ate no matter how high the caloric total went. I find it so helpful in the evening to see if I have any calories left for a snack. Sometimes it is pudding (made with either soy milk or skim milk), smoothie, portioned out size of girl scout cookies, etc. The most important factor is being able to see how I am eating and what changes I need to stay within my total calorie amount. Also, if I am going to indulge, I know I can exercise and track the calories so it does not affect my weight loss. Adding in the extra exercise to compensate for the treat is working for me.
Down 25 lbs since the end of December 2010 - thanks to my daughter-in-law and son. I will be ever so grateful for her finding this application, that I have on my phone, so I can log every time something goes in my mouth.0 -
I was bulimic since I was 14 (I'm 25 now) and it's really not a nice way to go. Your teeth rot (I have a mouthful of fillings), you get fat once you stop (my metabolism is goosed) and you're all round miserable. It's hard and I've learned that there are certain foods that will trigger this feeling so I've trained myself not have multipacks in the house etc. It's great that you've spotted the signs early and even better that you've noticed a pattern (you say you do this every weekend). Now is the time to work out why. Are you bored? Are you sad? Do you just really want potato chips? That's when you can start to change. Maybe buy a small pack so you can't go all out. Or do something like painting your nails to stave off the boredom (I do a french manicure most nights as it's really time consuming!). Wishing you all the luck in the world xxx0
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As you get further on in your life changing, then slowly you´ll want to stop eating "junk foods" alltogether.
Your body doesn´t really want that food, but it takes your brain a little longer to catch up with that thinking. Took me 3 months ...
If I ever want junk food these days, usually 1-2 pcs is enough (yes 1-2 crisps, or 1-2 bites of a chocolate) to get my tongue "bleghing" and my brain thinking: WTF is this???
I did binge on my first few weeks, cause my sugar craving was just that high. Now I rarely put sugar in anything. I prefer Agave syrup if I really really can´t eat that food without a little sweetness. (such as my AB milk in the morning).
Good luck on your journey !0 -
The best advice I can give you is this....don't buy the chips and chocolate. If they are in the house, you will eat them. I have to totally leave that kind of stuff at the store. It is a lot easier to leave it there than to leave it alone once it's at your home.
BUMP!!!!!!0 -
I also suffer from binge eating. I try to not keep my trigger foods in the house. It's hard cuz i have kids and sometimes you just gotta buy the stuff. I also found that by eliminating flour, wheat, and sugar (mostly) from my diet, the cravings do go away. The first week or so of detox is hell, but after that it gets alot easier. Food addicts anonymous have a great website that gives a list of good foods and triggers. Give it a shot, it might help. I remember the nights of eating and cooking and eating some more til I felt like my stomach would pop. I have also tried to make myself puke with no sucess. It sux. I feel for ya. Friend me if you like.0
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Oh yeah. One trick I use when I feel a craving.
I eat 6-8 almonds and leave it at that. 10 minutes later I feel so full that I´ve completely lost the craving0
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