Just wanted to share

36jessica
36jessica Posts: 319 Member
edited September 26 in Motivation and Support
The slow boat to China!

I should be cleaning my house, but I just wanted to say a few things first. Although I've never had an eating disorder I've spent all my life fighting body image and self confidence issues. Even when I was at a normal weight, I looked in the mirror and saw fat, ugly, disgusting, nothing. Nobody could convince me otherwise.

Then, about a month ago, I woke up feeling that something had changed. I didn't open my eyes with the same 'Move, Jess! You have GOT to lose some weight you disgusting cow!' I got up and I simply decided to treat myself better. I started to get organized. Not because I want to be skinny, not because I want people to applaud my efforts, not because I want to fit into those jeans but simply because I DO like myself.:smile:

First of all, I shed my own personal myth about weight loss being some kind of tortuous, painful journey with a mega prize at the end. I realized, there is no prize at the end. I've already started with the prize: me. So, there's no sense getting all worked up and frustrated with the breathless feeling of some kind of cosmic clock ticking. There is no clock!

Then I realized the truth of the matter -- I am an artist and I'm working on my greatest masterpiece: myself! And like any great artist, I need to take the time to work on my piece, love it, develop it and make it as perfect as possible -- no matter how long it takes.

I posted recently that I'm the turtle pushing the slow boat to China. And it's true! Compared to others, my 'only' 6lb weight loss in a month is slow progress, but it is progess, MY progress. You know, I will get to China eventually, but I'm definitely going to enjoy the ride in the meanwhile!:flowerforyou:

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  • Juliebean_1027
    Juliebean_1027 Posts: 713 Member
    A 6 pound loss in a month is nothing to sneeze at, and those who tell you otherwise, well...I won't mention what should be done/said to them. You're doing a great job! And more importantly you're finding a routine and a lifestyle that works for you. This isn't a sprint, it's most definitely a marathon. Keep up the great work!
  • 1hotmama2b
    1hotmama2b Posts: 24 Member
    Wow! What a great attitude! You are one strong lady!!! You go girl!!!
  • NikkiJ17
    NikkiJ17 Posts: 295
    AGREED!!!! And that's why I think "it's" working for me this time. I am losing weight because I'm not focusing on losing weight. I love the analogy, I'm working on my masterpiece!!
  • loseit4ever
    loseit4ever Posts: 187 Member
    Great post...and you're right, you will get there. You just have to do it the way it works for you! 6lbs in a month is wonderful too! It's healthy! Congrats and keep it up!
  • 36jessica
    36jessica Posts: 319 Member
    Thank you all for your replies and support. It means a lot. Good luck to you all too!:flowerforyou:
  • MochaMixAZ
    MochaMixAZ Posts: 844 Member

    First of all, I shed my own personal myth about weight loss being some kind of tortuous, painful journey with a mega prize at the end. I realized, there is no prize at the end. I've already started with the prize: me. So, there's no sense getting all worked up and frustrated with the breathless feeling of some kind of cosmic clock ticking. There is no clock!

    So wise!!! I love this insight... this really isn't a race, everything isn't going to magically change one day, there is no end... it's just the way we live.

    You're awesome! Thank you.
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