just introducing myself

I am pretty new here, haven't really introduced myself.
I have been "fat all my life" I can't remember ever being thin. (although my mom has photos of me being thin when I was younger then 6 or 7) I have let this heavy load run my life, I have let it affect my personality and even my social life. I am constantly thinking someone is looking at me or talking about me because I am overweight (prally an insecurity from being in school and being teased all the time) I had a failed marriage (nothing at all to do with my weight) but I found an excuse for why he cheated so much "of course it had to be me, had to be my weight" but in all reality it wasn't me at all, he was just no good! I am tired of being angry about being fat, I am tired of feeling ugly and I am tired of being a "b***h" cuz i'm not happy with myself. I have a great family and I want to be happy for them. I am so glad I joined this site.....I'VE LOST 29 FREAKING LBS IN 35 DAYS!" how exciting is that? Now I know that the rest will come off slower then this first 29, but it gives me hope, it tells me that I can do it! Anyway Im Kristina, I started this site on march 8th weighing 269 lbs.....I am 5 ft 3 and currently weigh 240 lbs, my goal right now is 200 lbs (not sure what that even feels or looks like, but its gotta be better then 269) I am taking this day by day and if I make it (and I will make it) to 200 lbs then maybe my goal will be reset but as of right now i'd feel pretty fine taking a 69 lb loss.......well thanks for reading guys and gals and thank you so much for this website it is such a great motivator and the people here are such an inspiration.