healthy turning into an eating disorder

I know what you mean. I've battled a lot of unhealthy dieting tendencies over the years, and old habits die hard.

I'm here for you, I've been there, and have struggled with it a lot.

oh hon. i know what you are going through. im there right now. today i have had no calories but a major workout. im in the negatives by 500 calories. my daily goal is set at 920 and sometimes i dont get there. i hear you. i feel the pain. because you dont want to be that way but you do. your being torn in half between wanting to be healthy and wanting to be skinny. you make it to your goal weight and you still arent happy because you arent skinny enough. it gets to the point you are in a size 0 and its falling off of you. it gets to the point you can wear a girls size 12 skirt. and you feel lost. thats me.

This thread made me cry. I almost lost a close friend to an eating disorder... and some days I just wonder why we can't just feel beautiful how we are. *group hug*

I experience that too. It stopped when I got annoyed that my son need help with his homework and I had to stop my boot camp workout.....then I asked myself, "what is wrong with me?" I got my priorities straighten out. God, then family, come first. Myself after that.

Now I have a new problem. I have a day job in front of a computer and I find myself eating when I am not hungry. Kind of like a couch potato. I succeed in losing my weight and meeting my basic goal. I am not heavily motivated to meet my ultimate goal and I am afraid I am starting to go the opposite direction because I am rebelling my desires versus common sense. I brought a bag a dark chocolate trail mix to work today. 3T is 140 calories. Why did I do that when I have problems proportion control? I don't want to tell myself "no" to things but I also don't want to go hungry to meet my ultimate goal. I guess I am getting bored with this food control thing and need a new game plan.:grumble:

I'm the same way... I'm super scared of gaining weight and I want to restrict myself of as many calories as possible :-(
obviously this isn't a good thing. I'm looking into counseling since I have an overwhelming fear of this possibly turning into
a more serious problem... Just hang in there and think that you have a child you need to be healthy for... if you ever need to talk go ahead and hit me up or any other friend....Your support system is the key to getting through these hard things

I just wanted to say... I have two very very good friends who both have eating disorders, and over the years have taken hard steps towards recovery. It has broken my heart at times to talk with them about their disorders, and I would never wish such emotional, mental, and physical anguish on anyone.

I urge anyone who is feeling like their calorie counting and eating patterns may turn into disordered eating to please contact a professional if you can. Even if it's only for a few sessions to hash out how you are feeling. At the very least, talk about things with your loved ones and family. You could also try calling the National Eating Disorders Association helpline at: 1-800-931-2237.

Take steps to help yourself before it gets worse. You're worth it.

its more then just the logging. I think about this 24/7.

no of course not its not just the logging. its the fear. you see a chocolate bar and you think how many carbs and calories are in it and how if you eat that you will gaine 1/7 of a pound.

I went through a few months of being totally obsessed with all the numbers and would be mad at myself and anyone who got in my way of working out and eating healthy. It wasn't something that would have been good to do long term but, looking back I learned a lot about diet and nutrition by watching everything so close. I also developed good eating and excersise habits and had a lot of success meeting both weight and fitness goals which boosted my confidence. If you're eating the calories your supposed to, look at it as a learning period and a time to develop good habits, and be patient and know that results will come soon enough.

I can relate to you too. I love mfp, but I can get obsessed about it and sometimes I don't track my food for that reason only. I seem to think about food more often when I track food than if I was to just eat when hungry.

I also get mad if I don't find time to fit a workout in, but sometimes that is also the first thing to go when my day is filling up.

Why do we have to let weight loss and exercise control our lives? Be strong!!

This thread makes me angry and very sad and it's not because of the people that have admitted they have issues, it's because something somewhere has brought us to that point of obsession, but what is it? What has happened that makes us become obsessed with our physical appearence and what numbers show up on the scale?

In my opinion, you can blame society. We have heard so many stories about how people are treated differently when they are over weight, I read a lot of success stories and often you will read how people say they are treated better after losing weight.

It's no wonder we start obsessing about the number on the scale, the size of our pants, how many calories are in this and that, what do I eat, what do I not eat. When you look at the world, what do you see? On the cover of every magazine you see a size 0 model or actress. You constantly hear about what foods are good and what foods are bad, how being overwieght contributes to the health problems of the US. How this current generation of kids won't live as long as their parents because of weight issues. I agree that as a nation we need to get our weight under control, but I also believe that the focus should not be on your physical appearance; however, it should be focused on your overall health.

As women, we have always associated our physical appearance with worthiness, and it's such crap that we do it. I've done, and I still do it, just ask my husband. I try to tell myself that what the scale says doesn't matter, but it does. I tell myself, that it's okay to be a size 8 and not a size 4, but it's not.

It makes me angry and sad that young girls and women make themselves deathly ill and in some cases die b/c of obsessions like these. It makes me angry and sad that as a society we continue to treat people badly because of their physical appearance.

Sorry, for the rant, just had to put it out there.

Yes... somewhat obsessed.... who am I kidding.... VERY obsessed. I get a little freaked out thinking about having to eat something when I don't know how many calories are in it. I have reached my goal weight and I don't really want to lose anymore... but I refuse to actually put my settings on maintenance because I'm afraid I'll gain back. I get upset if I can't exercise. I bring healthy snacks everywhere because I'm afraid to be hungry and not have any healthy options to eat. I started in January and this past weekend was the first time I gave myself a "cheat day" and then I still avoided all sweets and candy. I am obsessed. I feel too good at this weight and size to chance going back to where I was...

Sounds like me except I havnt got to my goal yet.
I hate not knowing the cal and the other weekend was awful when in was away for the weekend, I fell off the wagon and am struggling to get back on.

I like food too much so compensate by exercising loads but get v stressed if I go red on mfp. I will never starve myself though

This thread made me cry. I almost lost a close friend to an eating disorder... and some days I just wonder why we can't just feel beautiful how we are. *group hug*

sorry

Don't be sorry, I'm glad that there are places like this for us to share our struggles and our victories. I had body image issues as a teenager and was bordering on too thin... I just wish that we all could grow up feeling that we are beautiful... and then separate that from being healthy. Good luck to you.