venturing out of the shadows...

Hi,
I have been on here for nearly 3 weeks and I have been wandering around reading the forums and peoples blogs but haven't commented to much so far and I feel I should introduce myself...

My name is Suzannah (Sooz to most people ) I am 23 and I am doing the Slim Fast diet - I know I should just change the way I eat and not substitute meals for a shake or meal bar but I had a lot of problems when I was about 17 with getting very obsessive with what I ate and how much and how much exercise I did to the point just before I turned 18 I would only eat a max of 800 calories and have to exercise of 1000 calories which is very unhealthy. I got over it and then when to uni and piled on the pounds. I have tried to diet since but I always start to get to concerned with cutting out as many calories as possible that I get scared I will go back to then that I stop and carry on as I always have.

I now hate the way I look to the point I barely even look in the mirror anymore becuase I am discusted with what I see.
The slim fast seems to be working becuase 2 meals are already set and I don't have to worry about calories for the whole day just one meal.

I have had a few slip ups as we all do and I am having this weekend off becuase its my other halfs birthday and I don't want to be worrying the whole time but so far I have lost 9lb which I am really pleased with.
I am aiming for 9 stone (126lb) and I am currently 12 stone 12lb (180lb). So I have a way to go before I get to my goal but I have seen so many success stories on here that I feel really optimistic that I will get there this time

This site seems to be full of lovely supportive people and I would love to get to know some of you and hopefully we can all help each other along the way and get to our goals