This time I am serious... Help would be appreciated.

1. Log everything you eat, every day.
2. Don't beat yourself up if you slip and overeat/overindulge. Its not a failure; its a pothole in the road. Even if you slip for a few months and gain back some (or all) of the weight you've lost. You can't let that be a reason to quit. That's a backslide but not the end of the climb.
3. Still log the bad days too. Seeing it before you in numbers will motivate you to do better the next day. You can't deny it when its right there in front of you.
4. Plan ahead. Find out what's being served for meals. Plan out your food for the day either the night before or in the mornings, and log it then so that you can see what it will look like and you can make adjustments before you eat it.
5. Remember that you don't have to stick strictly to what you've pre-logged. That's just a plan. You can go back in and make adjustments later in the day as needed. (I always try to log out my breakfast, snacks, and lunch the night before and then make any adjustments on my log before dinner so that I can see how many calories I have left. Then I plan my dinner accordingly, ie. eat more veggies and less mashed potatoes or rice because I'm short calories or vise versa.)
6. Find a friend to exercise with. You can motivate each other. (My exercise buddy pushes me to do more and won't take no for an answer when I start making excuses about why I can't workout.)
7. Find a friend, or several, on here to keep you motivated. (Feel free to add me if you want.)
8. Find exercise that you like. If you hate the exercise, you won't want to do it.
9. Remember that not everyone's the same and not everything works for everyone. Find what works for you. (For example, some people find that eating 1 or 2 meals a day works best for them. I've found that eating 3 meals and 3-4 snacks a day works best for me. Its not that I'm doing it right and that they're doing it wrong. Its that we're both doing what's right for us.)
10. Love yourself!

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