In For the Long Haul and Need Some Accountability

So, um, hi

I've struggled with my weight for a long time. It actually started when I was young, 8 or 9, I developed a very unhealthy relationship with food and my body. My mom was caught up in constant yo-yo dieting and negative body image, and I got drug into it a lot...every time she'd start up a new diet or decide to start exercising...and the whole thing left me feeling a lot of animosity toward the whole "healthy lifestyle" thing. Also my mom was constantly harping on me about my weight all through middle/high school....and I look back now at pictures and think "Wtf, I didn't look bad at all...." I would kill to have the body I had back in HS, but I digress.

Anyway, NOW the problem is so big (ha, ha) that it can't be ignored. I'm 350 pounds, heaviest I've ever been in my life, and I don't want to feel like this anymore. More importantly, I'm 28, got married earlier this year, and REALLY want to start looking at making a family of our own within the next couple years....but I want to be healthy first.

So here I am.

I've been on MFP for a while, but I always have the bad habit of logging for a few weeks, then thinking, "Pfft, this is easy, I don't need to log every single thing..." and then slacking off, and next thing I know I'm gaining weight. So now that I've identified that as a problem, I am determined to stop falling into that trap.

I'm going to try to blog about my journey using the MFP blog. It would be SO GREAT if maybe some of you could pop in and follow me there? I've found that if I have an "audience" it's a lot easier to stay motivated...and it's been a long-time dream of mine to be a healthy food/lifestyle blogger, so I thought maybe if I started here it'd give me the confidence to swap over to a "real" blog later

Anyway, enough rambling from me. I've got to get back to work. But please feel free to add me, and let's rock this thing!