Why do you binge/overeat?

....and I'm terrible with variety - i need to taste it all - bad at buffets and bad at Christmas parties with cookie platters in front of me.... and chicken wings (dont forget chicken wings), and poutine....that's it though - well except chicken nuggets and pogos don't help..... god i love food.....

I come from a large family where food = love and so much more. I use to eat my feelings etc. There is a new Weight Watchers commercial that explains the emotional eating that makes me giggle every time it comes on. I have tried desperately to eat to live not because I'm bored, happy, or it's what I should do at certain times. I'm by far not perfect and will never claim to be a good example but I agree with LaurenCheek my binge eating is mostly carb related. It's like a roller coaster for me the day starts out really good and then I think it's safe to have a sliver of cake, a cookie, muffin, pastry, roll, and misc bad carb choice and before I know it I'm all over the place I feel great until the day is over and I then realize I ate WAY TOO much for example 6 snickerdoodle cookies!!! Here it is nearly 24 hrs since my last snickerdoodle and my stomach aches still of course it could be from the brown n serve rolls I much on out of boredom after dinner. If I steer clear of the bad stuff I don't feel like a blob the next day.

My battle with over-eating started at a young age. My father (who I haven't seen in about 5 years now), was consistently picking at my weight. I was about 10, he started making comments about my body. I couldn't wear this because I didn't have the body for it. I couldn't wear that because it didn't look okay. It got worse and worse until I couldn't handle it. I told him that I loved who I was, and my appearance didn't change that. He began plating out my meals, not allowing seconds or snacks, yet continuing to eat them in front of me (mind you, my father was not even a remotely "fit" person...he used to joke about his ice cream baby belly). Then, he remarried to a woman with two kids of her own, both heavier than me. One of the girls was about a month older, and he allowed her to have whatever she wanted whenever she wanted. I grew depressed rather quickly, and began eating whenever I felt sad.

A few years went by, and I managed to stop doing this. I moved in with a boyfriend, and he destroyed the world I had come to love. He was abusive, both verbally and physically, and I began hating myself. Food was the only thing in my life I had control over. So I began to eat...and eat...and eat.

Now, I'm here. Mentally, I'm much more stable (and healthy). I'm now on the journey to be physically healthy. I still battle the urge to eat though, especially when I'm stressed. That was always my go-to.

well... Because of just about every reason you can think of. Including I just don't like where I am in life. Ive been a failure for far too long, but I can only blame myself because I've had many shots at success in the past. Maybe I just don't want happiness because it involves too much hard work.

I never feel guilty after bingeing but instead empty or somewhat calm. Sometimes I feel like something, some feeling is growing inside of me that needs to be released. I can't quite put my finger on it, but this feeling along with my stuffed stomach, gives me something else to focus on.

I only ever binged when I was struggling with eating disorders for a span of 4 years. I wasn't putting enough nutrients in my body, not even close to enough, so I felt massive cravings and when I let myself eat, I'd eat everything.

Now I weight-train, eat good food regularly and never deprive myself. I never over-eat because I end up nauseous.

I really LOVE feeling full.
it feels so good.

-the sads
-the angries
-the happies

basically any strong emotion can make me wanna eat. it's bad.

I overeat if I have something near me that is full and open. Like if someone leaves a can of regular Pringles sitting open near me then I will eat the entire thing without even thinking just because it's there. It especially happens if I'm talking to someone while I'm eating. I live by myself, so I only buy 100 calorie packs of snacks so that I only eat one a day and I make sure to only have water in the fridge for drinks and low calorie everything else. I also plan out my MFP in the morning so that way I know what I'm eating all day and I pack my lunch for work as soon as I get home from work for the next shift. I also avoid anywhere that I know I will binge...I won't go near a Dairy Queen and if I have to be somewhere where I know I will eat the food then I only get the kids portions or senior portions. The sad thing for me is that I actually hate food, I hate eating, and I hate how I feel after due to my GERD and IBS. I also only like a very small list of foods due to an eating disorder that I've had since I was 2, so that makes it much more difficult. The only 2 foods I actually crave are DQ ice cream and sauceless cheese pizza, so I avoid both.