anyone struggling with emotions and hate this time of year?

I was thinking of going away this Christmas because I was so down last year at this time. I know a lot of people have a hard time and if you need to let it out we are here for you. It is family time and a lot of people are alone or have bad families. We get depressed and we eat.

I cant remember when I wasn't sad over Thanksgiving and Christmas. Well, maybe when I was small. I married young and it was a terrible marriage and holidays were a nightmare. We divorced and parents were just like this husband so they were of no support. I had children when they were teenagers went to live with him. I put up this tiny little tree and just cried.

Well to make a long story short, adult children had a drinking problem like Dad and parents were getting old and they had been wild and neglectful.

I married well the 2nd time but my family was crippling me especially Holidays. My best friend had a wonderful family that I had to watch, heck it seemed everyone did.

But for some reason I have been at peace this year. No one is different. I lost weight, I changed jobs and work is with people who have it much worse than me, autistic children, hard to handle teens, and people with no money or food.

I had a terrible cold also before Thanksgiving and am so grateful to feel well. I feel grateful for a lot of things. I don't know if I can keep this mindset but I sure hope so. I don't know if this will help anyone else but it has helped me. I wish all of my MFP friends peace not only with weight loss but with a peaceful life with gratitude. Because with gratitude it is hard to feel sorry for yourself. Yep, I am grateful I have money to go to the gym and I can buy healthy foods, some people cant buy any food.