SBF, Reboot Boogaloo, May 2nd

Morning, pebbs.

First, a confession: I got deep into working yesterday and missed the workout.

Today, it's dance class (in just a few minutes, actually) then working with some house tidying on the breaks I'm trying to formulate a food goal for the week. I'm thinking of no white flour, as that's been sneakily creeping back in and doing no favors.

Hands still stupid. Still cranky about it, but what can you do? At least I have something interesting to talk to the new doctor about, right? ( sense of humor: my coping mechanism since 1978 )

Our weather would put put your fires for sure, we've had light soaking rain with only two days of sunshine for weeks.

May?!, boogaloo:flowerforyou:

Good morning,

I got a full work out in yesterday! Yay! Felt pretty good. I didn't get anything else done though. I don't know where my days are going. Computer maybe?
Goals today: horse therapy, prayer meeting, and cleaning. Computer and phone should stay off while I am cleaning. I get too easily distracted. I want to clean for at least the amount of time that I would spend working out. I can get quite a bit done in that amount of time. And I also want to log my food today.
Wow. Short post.
Sunshine boogaloo!
MM

Morning, pebbs,

Slipping a bit into "struggling to stay positive" mode. My physio sent me for x-rays yesterday after asking me questions and asking me the question "describe to me the pain or discomfort as best you can, even if the terms feel weird." which, I have to say, is a very good question for a medical person to ask. Part of what came up was "my bones seem to hurt." then, after the x-rays, I came home to two very disappointing "no" rejection emails. Self doubt ensued. I realized that this next year is the "year of no", as I described it to my husband. I've got to send out submissions (statistically, 80 percent of these get rejected outright) apply for jobs, and compete for post doc fellowships. I'm trying to be realistic, not pessimistic, so that all the "no" doesn't destroy me. I like gold stars, not "no"s.

In other news, my intention today is to go on an errand/shopping walk after the work session. I need to bring food into the house that isn't pre-made. It's a goal for the day, my only one (other than working). In small victories news, I haven't binged since the ice cream incident a week and a half ago (although I have made some less than stellar food choices). Last Friday, I bought binge equipment, and then portioned it out. I took a box of cookies and put them in single serve baggies, even though I sort of bought them with the angry intention of eating the whole box along with a frozen pizza. I also portion controlled the pizza. I'm not proud of those food choices (but I'm trying to move away from equating food choices with good/bad, remember) but I didn't binge. I did notice that I didn't feel well at all from eating those foods, which is why I've put refined flour on the "avoid" list. If I want pizza again, I'll make it from scratch. Way better tasting, and no yucky body feelings.

Novel of the day, boogaloo.:flowerforyou:

Nothing much new to report today.

Slept through dance class (so tired again, in bed by nine, up at 8:45) just counting the days until x rays are back and I have the appointment with the new doctor. Aiming to go for a walk after an appointment to make up for sleeping through dance class.

Intentions of the day: not giving into "the fear" this has been creeping in with the body's latest symptoms, trying to ask the question "how will I feel about this food choice in an hour?" before I eat something, and making a point to take time to enjoy the sunshine when I'm out in it. Seems like enough for anybody.

Sunshine superwoman, boogaloo.:flowerforyou:

:sick: Yep. I'm sick. A cold or something. Maybe even just bad allergies. I've had a sore throat and little bit of a runny nose since working out yesterday. I think I need to trade my body in, or at least take it to the repair shop.
Since I am not feeling well, I'm not sure what I will get done today. I have to go to the store in a car that might or might not make it there. (Can you tell I'm cranky?) That may be it for the day, but I hope I have energy to get some more organizing/cleaning done and to walk on the TM. Other than that I will do my best to log food, not eat a sore throat away, and drink lots of water.
Since I am cranky I will stop there.
Hope you all have a great Thursday and stay healthy!

No clever boogaloo, booglaoo!
MM

Morning, pebbs,

Yoga today. Looking forward to the restfulness of it, and getting to be an embryo with no problems for an hour and a half. Hoping we can find supported poses that don't hurt. Dizzy and slight headache today, along with the arms thing. What?:noway:

I am sending sympathy your way, MM. Hope you feel better and your car makes it to the store and back without a hitch.

Mary, hope rain comes.

CP. I am not guilting you, but do miss you.

Aiming for the following: more sunshine. A better job at "How will this food make me feel in an hour?" than yesterday, or breakfast. (Did semi-good with this yesterday. Managed to at least make it to the grocery store to stock the fridge with some no-excuse snack ideas. . .but did give in to a muffin at the coffee shop when I was out and about and hungry.) Will buy ingredients for dinner on the way home from yoga and then instruct my husband how to put it together. I have gotten good at letting him be the hands. It is frustrating, but I have also gotten good at dropping things. Bossy is easier than breaking things.

Also, more work this afternoon, and hoping that the xrays make it over to the doc by tomorrow.

Bossypants, boogaloo.:flowerforyou:

Aw, MM, I am a big fan of crying, and I think it does help you to feel better. Scientifically proven.

Today I have very few goals. I am having a lot of trouble focusing, due to the pain levels, but I've decided another reason is because my work area is disorganized and I haven't taken a complete day off for a long time. Even on my days off, I've let the work creep in, either talking about the work, or listening (and therefore analyzing) or something similar. So I have two goals today: organizing and being stupid. Well, not really stupid, but just not touching the work outside of thinking "what folder/pile should I put this into?" I also will make a trip to the chiropractic office to make sure the hands stay better. Oh, and hey, good news, the hands feel a little better. The problem is I sort of shut down everything (working out, typing more than an hour a day, etc.) so now I have to see how much I can do without aggravating them. They were bad again by last night, after I washed some dishes, and they feel pretty bad this a.m.

Other than that, if the weather holds, I might try a walk. Yesterday I took a super meandering walk home from yoga, which I'm a bit sore from. My neighborhood is hillier than I remember. I'm feeling pretty out of shape these days.

Turn off the brain, boogaloo.:flowerforyou:

Update for some good(ish) news. . .according to the xrays, there's nothing wrong with my neck, except it's "held" weird. So, this is most likely some sort of muscle issue, not a bone/disc problem.

So, timid "hooray".

Off to do something mindless. . .and take some allergy meds. Spring is here! (achoo!)

V, glad it's not a bone or disc problem! I hope you find some relief soon!

My update: I got quite a bit of house work done today. I still have a long ways to go but the house looks decent. People can come over now. I am going to sort through a pile of papers at the desk to scan or shred to help hubby out so he won't spend all weekend doing it. I actually feel like cleaning since the house is looking better. Also got a little doze on the couch. Not sure that it helped but maybe it will get me through the afternoon.
More cleaning boogaloo.
MM

Mary, I can't decide if that sounds fun or gross. I guess the two are not mutually exclusive.

Just woke up from sleeping nearly 13 hours. I'm about to get to work (in my freshly organized office space) and then go get a massage. Not much else on the schedule, might go for a walk as rain yesterday prevented it. Trying to take it a bit easy. But. . .

Thinking about moving again. There are no less than six people in the apartment next door right now, and none of them appear to have been taught how to use their "inside voices", they are running up and down the stairs, slamming the doors (a picture actually fell off my wall last night) and smoking in the hallway. Very annoying. I have never had a terrible neighbor situation, even in student-filled cheap-o apartments or grad student dorms. Not sure what else to do. Have complained to landlord several times and called cops twice. We were hoping they'd move after the school year ended, but they aren't. :sad: We can't really afford the expense or aggravation of moving, but this is crazy. The strangest thing is, this is the most I've ever paid for rent in my life. Sorry for the venting, but total wits end here.

Praying for quiet, boogaloo.:flowerforyou:

Mary, is it the Warrior Dash or something similar? My cousins just did the WD and loved it. I'm with V, it sounds fun and gross! :laugh:
V, you believe in prayer, so my suggestion is to pray that God will take care of it. He has a way of doing that. He will move you or move them. Are any of the other neighbors complaining? That should be enough to get them evicted right?
CP, so sorry to hear about your pain! It sounds awful. I hope it doesn't come back and you get relief soon. :frown: :flowerforyou:

I am still not feeling great but with hearing about all the other horrible things going on in people's lives (my family members, my Pebbles, and my friend's baby Whit who is very very sick and not even four weeks old yet), I realize that my life isn't that bad. I am very blessed and I will take my own problems over some of the others I've heard. It's funny how you can see other people's problems and realize that you'd rather have the ones you do than to have theirs and they feel the same way about their problems. Some times.
Anyway, we are going to meet Steve's parents half way and have lunch with them. It will be fun. I am not sure what else we are doing. Hanging out I guess.

Very grateful boogaloo!
MM

V, I hope things work out smoothly for you soon...on all counts. You've had it rough for quite some time now.

Mary, how was the mud run?

Hello to all the other Pebbs! We miss you!

Quick post. I was talking to Steve about how my body is really out of whack and how I dropped 8 pounds quickly and now it's not coming off. He asked if I was still logging. Um, not really. :blushing: He said he knows it comes off when I log food and doesn't come off when I don't. :grumble: I dislike logging. He also said he knows I've been depressed lately and I eat more when I am depressed. I noticed I eat more (or badly) and don't log it. I need to log it anyway. I think my depression is due to hormones still changing and to feeling like poop. I had tossed around the idea of only having a cheat day on holidays, but some holidays are close together (like my birthday and July 4th), and I could also use the excuse of "Oh it's breast cancer awareness day!" :laugh: (Isn't everyday now an awareness for something?) And it's Mother's Day (a holiday) so that's any easy thing to start doing today.
Goals today: log my food no matter what, resist the urge to pig out because I'm a mommy and it's my holiday, get over this cold crud (feel a tiny bit better), and maybe walk tonight. And keep the house cleaned up. We got a new flat panel from Steve's parents yesterday (there's a story behind that which I won't get into), so Steve was setting it up last night and made a mess of my living room. I'm going to make him clean it up.

Staying on top of things boogaloo!
MM

Morning pebbs, and happy mother's day.

I just blogged about my "no logging" maintenance plan. . .we pebbs, we're so in sync.

I'm aiming to sort of drag myself to Zumba. I am just desperate for the endorphins, even though the body is still kind of in "couldn't we just lay down?" mode. The plan is to stand in the back, and leave if the body still wants to lay down. Can't decide if it's good sense "moving will help you to feel better" or ego at work here.:ohwell: <

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pondering face. Mostly I just want to leave the house.

In the interest of leaving the house, I made dinner plans with some friends, and I've been doing some light house-tidying in the interest of feeling better inside the house. Also, need to get some chapter work done.

I sent my Mom flowers like a good girl. I utilized a (still pretty modest) big city budget and she lives in a small town. She sent me a picture, and I somewhat inadvertently sent her the biggest bunch of flowers I've ever seen! Seriously, it looks like a gigantic altar arrangement. . .it's covering her whole table. Cool.:laugh:

Lots to do, boogaloo.:flowerforyou: