Tired of my Own Inconsistency
Just wanted to "out" myself on here, and share my motivation for today in the hopes that it can resonate for others:
I am tired of putting forth HALF effort, and then being disappointed with HALF results.
I am 40 pounds down from my top-weight, which is great and all, but I still have another 20 or 30 to lose before reaching a medically-sound goal weight (I am currently 185, 5'9" female, with 29% body fat).
The truth is: I have been "stuck" at this weight for OVER A YEAR...up and down within the 180s, but never busting my "plateau"...and I have blamed it on getting older (I am 30 yrs old), on having PCOS, and on a million other factors beyond my control...but the TRUTH IS:
I am NOT being CONSISTENT with staying within my calories!!!
On the plus side, at least I have been successful in maintaining my loss so far, which is great. But the REAL reason I am not "able" to lose the rest is because:
--I am not logging my cals/food ACCURATELY most days.
--I do not track my food (MFP or pen and paper) every day, only some days of the week.
--I am probably eating around 2500 cals some days (or more), and rarely staying within my MFP cals (1700) for the day.
In a way, it is LIBERATING to admit this: THERE IS A REASON THIS IS 'NOT WORKING', AND IT IS SOMETHING WITHIN MY CONTROL, WITHIN MY POWER TO CHANGE IT!
It's very easy for me to feel like I am "trying so hard", when really, I am only following my cal goals a couple days out of each week...therefore blowing my deficit on the other days...makes me feel like i am logging "all the time"...but is it REALLY all the time? NO.
So, I am back to "counting days"...keeping track of my many consecutive days I stay within my plan. I do this NOT to be rigid with myself, but to bring in some accountability, context, perspective, and honesty.
Anyone relate to this?
