Help, can't keep with the program :(

For starters, are you sure you're eating enough? I mean it's good to be at a deficit but if your deficit is too large you may be causing yourself to get super hungry later in the day. I had that issue a few months ago, I was eating at 1200 and I had increased my activity level and didn't adjust my activity level here and ended up starving to death daily, I'm now at a happy 1800 calories, giving me about a 15% daily deficit from my TDEE. Another thing to look at is the quality of the food you're eating, are you getting enough good fat? I find for myself that if I eat a piece of fruit as a snack I need to pair it with a good fat, like 1 hard boiled egg or 20 almonds etc. Apple slices dipped in nut butter is one of my go-to snacks.

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An open diary can help us figure out a bit more.

Evenings are tough for me too, mostly because I make dinner for 5 because my husband works nights but then I don't go to bed until midnight so that is about 7 hours without a meal. I try to eat my dinner later and have a light snack around 8 but it can be challenging to resist raiding the kitchen. I try to distract myself by reading or cleaning (tonight I am pinteresting) or just go to bed earlier if possible. Pre-logging definitely helps, its much better to decide beforehand what I'm going to eat and when, rather than eating on impulse and trying to figure out how much I had afterwards.

Forgot to tell you. What ever number it comes up with, multiply it by 0.85 and eat that amount per day. You can change it in your settings. Also change your macros to 40% carbs 30% fat, and 30% protein. I prefer 40 carbs, 25 fat, 35 protein. You can message me if you have other questions or need help with your numbers.

I do something kind of weird. I cook my dinner meal for the next night after I eat dinner. I find if I get home, and I am hungry and/or tired, and my meal is not prepped, I will grab a snack. Which in turn seems to turn on cravings for more. My family has gotten used to re-heating their dinner. We still eat together. It gives me time to relax, and I stay on track. Then I prep food for the next day. I also usually keep a back up meal in fridge, too, in case something happens or the family decides they don't like the healthy meal. Then I don't feel guilty because they still eat. (Although I do encourage them to eat healthy.) It's weird, but it works for us.

You know what I've been doing lately is getting a bunch of low calorie dinner recipes from Pinterest that has helped me sooooo much. They have healthy snacks on there too. I know dinner is hard but u can do it. I'm a stay at home mom and every meal is hard for me cause I have access to all the junk my husband wants and my kids but now that I'm cooking low calorie meals and snacks everyone is eating healthier. It's a process once u find urs just stick to it and don't look back. I still meet my hubby at McDonald's with the kids at his lunch hour and while they r enjoying burgers I'm stuffing my face with their salads which are really good btw u just have to make that switch in ur head. Plz add me if u need motivation I'm always here.

I'm so sorry about your son As far as staying on track with your weight loss, there's a wealth of information to be found here! Wish you all the best.

Something not addressed above is what weight loss goal you chose during your setup. It is really tempting to choose 2 lbs a week say, but that can be self-defeating if it gives you too small a calorie allowance to adhere to. 1200 a day is tough for most of us I think... maybe consider a plan that will have you lose slower but that you can stick with more consistently?