Feeling fat...

If you start really watching what you are eating, and just try and have a more positive attitude about things, you are trying to work on it. Give yourself confidence you can do it!

I can definitely tell you what has been helping me! I think the first step is actively treating yourself positively out loud. Don't verbalize those nasty things you think about yourself.

Then you can begin weeding out the thoughts too. You can force your mind to "change the subject"! If you are looking in the mirror thinking, "wow, I look so bad/fat" or whatever you think, begin singing song lyrics or doing math in your head and really focus on the words/numbers. Gradually the negative thoughts should become less if you keep working on removing them.

I think behavior begets behavior, and that's what we call habit! :P

gotobedhungry wrote: »

If you feel fat but are not fat, probably get some counseling. Says the person who does not take her own advice.

Same! Deep down I know I'm not fat, but that doesn't stop me looking in the mirror and thinking, "Ugh, I'm so huge!" It also doesn't help that even when I was 20lbs lighter I wasn't any happier, which makes motivation somewhat more difficult.

I find for me the best way to love my body is to get a body that I love. Even if I'm not happy now, I'm still way happier than I was when I was bigger. And there's the odd day when I look in the mirror and think, "Hey, maybe I'm not so big after all." And dressing flatteringly helps a lot, too. I can't convince myself to love what I've got, but I can focus on the bits I do like and where I've improved, and it helps me carry on working towards a body that I'll want.

alskarani wrote: »

Never mind what?

Um...okay...

I know (I know) you're anxious and lonely and casting about any which way for support right now. I humbly suggest that a weight loss forum (where you posted this thread) is not going to be the healthiest place for you to find it as you start anorexia recovery. Don't torture yourself further by hanging around--even virtually--people who are in the process of losing weight to make themselves healthier. Things will be SO much easier for you, emotionally, if you can find friendship-support in an environment not focused around food and exercise.

Developing a realistic idea of your own body, and learning to tune in to the real emotions that "feeling fat" masks, are crucial and difficult parts of ED recovery. I really, really hope you have someone in person to sit with you and help you through that process.