Recovering From Anorexia ( 19 yrs old ) SERIOUS GAME ATTITUDE !

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wjayeverdjd
wjayeverdjd Posts: 18 Member
in Goal: Gaining Weight and Body Building
Hello , I am from Ontario . As the title says , I am recovering from anorexia . Now your first thought might be - then get your *kitten* off my fitness pal . Well , heres the personal facts .
I am 5'8 111 pounds . I gained currently from 104 pounds . I have battled 3 years of anorexia and also nearly had heart failure . I don't normally log my calories . I just don't eat high calorie foods or avoid food groups completely . I have premisson from my dietitian to log my foods on my fitness pal ( I asked her and we discussed the pros and con's ) . We decided together that my fitness pal may help me stop under eating ( if serious about recovery ) . I am serious about recovery . After losing three years of my life , I have finally found myself in a happy place . I am discovering my strengths and can say I have learned to like myself much more then ever before .

That said , fitness and health will always be an interest of mine . Before anorexia , I ran on my schools cross country team and played basketball . I was the athlete of the year .

I am working on gaining that title back but however slowly . My goals are increase calories , keep cardio low , and strength train slowly for muscle gain . I will later apply for college , join cross country , and eat like a champion ( I'll have to increase by then again ) .

So , if you wanna be friends and watch my progress . I'll add ya . :)

I'm on the first phase of P90X .
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  • cpink1022
    cpink1022 Posts: 4 Member
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    I think that it's awesome that you're doing this for your self. I also think that it's awesome that you're taking the initiative to log the foods you eat. Gaining weight, especially when you're on the end curve of anorexia, is really hard. You might think you're eating enough, but you're probably not. Especially if you're having a hard time gaining wieght.
  • LKArgh
    LKArgh Posts: 5,179 Member
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    May I ask why you profile indicates you are in the process of losing weight?
  • kjm3579
    kjm3579 Posts: 3,974 Member
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    My wife's best friend went through the same struggles as a young woman and actually went through inpatient treatment -- she was healthy and her body looked great after she got control of her eating or lack thereof and did sensible exercise and ate properly. Keep at it and use MFP as a support network.
  • emdeesea
    emdeesea Posts: 1,823 Member
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    Are you trying to gain or lose? Your profile says you're trying to lose.
  • firstsip
    firstsip Posts: 8,399 Member
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    I'm glad you're working with a dietician. There are definitely pros and cons when it comes to using this app while in recovery for an ED.

    A few things to point out: as others have said, your settings indicate that you're trying to lose weight. You can change your goals in MFP to gaining.

    You also said you're meant to keep cardio low, and low impact exercise is generally what's recommended for people still in the early stages of recovery. P90X is not any of this, and I'd urge you to let your dietician know this is the exercise you were planning to do. I don't think he or she would recommend you continue.
  • nosheetsherlock
    nosheetsherlock Posts: 1
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    I'm recovering too, do you want to be friends?
  • GiddyupTim
    GiddyupTim Posts: 2,819 Member
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    Good luck, wjayeverdjd.
  • wjayeverdjd
    wjayeverdjd Posts: 18 Member
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    I haven't yet updated all my information . And the p90x first phase calorie suggestion is my starting intake for recovery . I will be increasing as I become more confident . I have already stopped 7-13 day fasts . I have already gained and will continue .
  • wjayeverdjd
    wjayeverdjd Posts: 18 Member
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    I will again let my dietitian know . I am not following every workout on the plan . I am selecting the lowest impact exercises and really focusing on only 30 minutes of the strength videos .
  • wjayeverdjd
    wjayeverdjd Posts: 18 Member
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    Alright , I've updated my information . :)
  • wjayeverdjd
    wjayeverdjd Posts: 18 Member
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    emdeesea wrote: »
    Are you trying to gain or lose? Your profile says you're trying to lose.
    Gain . I had to update my information .
  • 10alliemarie
    10alliemarie Posts: 66 Member
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    I would definitely let the dietician know the exact exercises you are doing and your goals of becoming an athelete again. She might adjust your calorie counts to help you with your goal.
  • wjayeverdjd
    wjayeverdjd Posts: 18 Member
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    Also , I'm a weird picky eater . If added , you're going to notice that . I have weird habits due to three years of disordered eating and food fears but I found a love in quest bars recently . And ate a pizza with a friend last night
  • wjayeverdjd
    wjayeverdjd Posts: 18 Member
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    My dietitian didn't want to discuss meal plans in our meeting because she fears that those struggling with anorexia might be compelled to ONLY follow the meal plan and cut down from the items on the list . I told her it wasn't my goal to do so but she reminded strong in her belief.
  • wjayeverdjd
    wjayeverdjd Posts: 18 Member
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    Basically , I am recovering with support but I am not in a eating disorder outpatient program anymore because I recently had to move . However , I am seeing a behavioral specialist for PTSD & visiting the dietitian . I will be moving once more and very soon . I will be joining the outpatient program then . We don't have any programs in my small town that I'm living in and I don't drive .
  • wjayeverdjd
    wjayeverdjd Posts: 18 Member
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    MFP is the best method we could think of currently to make sure I meet calorie goals since I naturally under eat .
  • FatFreeFrolicking
    FatFreeFrolicking Posts: 4,252 Member
    edited March 2015
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    I saw in another thread on MFP that you are eating 1800 calories. Did your dietitian recommend this? I ask because the recovering anorexics I've worked with have all been told to eat over 2000 calories (usually closer to 3000 calories). I think 1800/day is probably too low for you to gain weight, especially if you are exercising.

    Congrats on wanting to get better! That's the hardest part for most anorexics and you've done it! :)

  • FatFreeFrolicking
    FatFreeFrolicking Posts: 4,252 Member
    edited March 2015
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    wjayeverdjd wrote: »
    Basically , I am recovering with support but I am not in a eating disorder outpatient program anymore because I recently had to move . However , I am seeing a behavioral specialist for PTSD & visiting the dietitian . I will be moving once more and very soon . I will be joining the outpatient program then . We don't have any programs in my small town that I'm living in and I don't drive .

    I'm glad you will begin an outpatient program soon!

    Obviously a dietitian cannot help you recover from the psychological aspects of anorexia. Anorexia isn't just about food. It is mostly psychological. A dietitian can help you address calorie goals, macros, etc. which will lead to weight gain. But you will still need an outpatient program because that focuses on changing your behaviors/thoughts which is the main problem.
  • wjayeverdjd
    wjayeverdjd Posts: 18 Member
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    She suggested I start at 1800 calories , introduce 1 fear food per week , and also increase as time goes on . This is just my starting point .

    I have anorexia . I have been in treatment for three years . I know the disease . I know why I have it but I'm not going to get into my life story .

    I had a mental health team of professionals but moved .

    I know exactly what steps I must take and go through .

    This is just an introduction post like any other .

  • wjayeverdjd
    wjayeverdjd Posts: 18 Member
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    People without anorexia often view those who suffer with the disease as perhaps - misinformed . However , anorexia can develope in any background no matter profession , age , or sex . It is a mental illness . It became my coping skill throughout many child hood stresses but I am also not my anorexia . I have anorexia but I am also a person like any other .

    I'm here because Id love to meet those who have healthy goals , practice self love , and self care .

    I'm also here because I am in recovery .

    Like said before , I was a runner . I have also studied greatly in health and fitness . I don't lack knowledge of either . I simply lack the skill of putting it into action and also have a disease which alters my body image and likes to sit upon my shoulder as a disguised " angel " . However , it is a complete and utter demon . I have struggled for three years and have been admitted 10+ times .

    I have been through many programs as well as many health and fitness classes . In fact , my recovery goal is later working as a personal trainer .

    Health and fitness is a personal interest and has been since grade 3 . I just got lost in a sea of traumas which triggered and formed my anorexia .

    But I am becoming more .

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