Accountability to me

This is just a place where I got to hold myself accountable.. I am 35 I weigh 190, I am ashamed of myself but as of today I will be accountable for my weight gain... I can a will lose this weight the 40 pounds I put on in 2014. I can do this for myself. I deserve to be happy in my own body instead of self esteem at a all time low .. This is a journey and as I do this I may learn something's about myself along the way.