Type 1 diabetes, help or encouraging words needed

rockailly13
rockailly13 Posts: 38 Member
edited November 16 in Health and Weight Loss
When began this journey back in 2009 I weighed 210 lbs, over the course of the next two years I managed to get down to 170-180 depending on the month but I was able to stay in that range. I might also confess that the first 30 lbs of that came off with conducting H1N1 a couple months into my weight loss. By the summer of 2012 I was down to 139 from being in school and running myself ragged, then by summer of 2013 I was back up to about 170-165 and I was happy with that. Then I started the job from hell and I moved...twice. Within the time I moved in February 2014 to now I gained A LOT, I am now sitting at 224. I am so angry with myself and I can't seem to lose the weight. I have quit the job I was at and make it a point to walk for at least a half an hour or longer everyday and I try my hardest to stay within my calories. I also have type 1 diabetes and so I have that working against me as well. It's hard not to just give up and say "I'm stuck at this weight forever." I also feel like my support system is non existent...I feel so stuck and I don't understand why the weight isn't coming off, I feel like I am following my plan but maybe I'm not as well as I think I am? It's also hard to find the energy and motivation most days. I just feel stuck. Any helpful hints or tips from the MFP world?

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  • futuremanda
    futuremanda Posts: 816 Member
    Are you willing to make your diary public? It is tough to help if we can't see it.

    If you suspect you're not really adhering to your calories, then probably you're not really adhering to your calories. Log everything, every day, even days you go over your limit. Pick the smartest database entries, or create your own, carefully. Weigh all solids, measure liquids.

    Re: motivation. You don't need motivation. Think of motivation like a feeling... it's temporary. No one has it all the time. It's determination you need. Just like you go to work even when you don't want to in that moment, you stick to your guns. You also need to realize that no one does this perfectly (especially not at first!) -- you WILL eat over your target sometimes. Oh well! If you let that stop you, you will be stopped. If you log it, and move on, you will keep losing weight. It's about committing, not about perfection.

    Re: Things working against you. We all have that. I have let those things block me before. I lost 42 lbs, was doing fantastic, was on track to keep losing and then maintain, no problems. Then, things. And I let myself regain half. I didn't need to do that, I just got it into my head that with the new challenges, I couldn't keep to my plan. Now I am re-losing that half (and eventually more) and you know what? I'm still operating under those challenges that "blocked" me before. And I'm losing, because I'm not letting them block me anymore. I'm working with/around/through them -- and no, I'm not losing 2 lbs a week, no, I can't control everything. I am doing what I can, and in a year, instead of being up another 10 lbs, maybe I'll be down 10 or so. That was my choice, and I made it. Make your choice. You're not stuck at a weight, you're sticking yourself there. You can choose to stay there or choose to change it, and you can choose how difficult you make those changes.

    Re: Angry at yourself. In my experience, trying to create positive changes or shape a positive future for yourself out of negative feelings either results in yo-yoing (no sustaining it) or no change. Do try to work on self-compassion, self-love, not allowing yourself to talk to yourself cruelly. Don't indulge and feed and listen to your negative thoughts. This is not a switch you can flip, it's a thing you practice, and no one practices it perfectly. Just work on it, it will benefit you, I promise. Don't dwell on mistakes, on the past, on whatever -- just take steps towards your goals, even if they are small, even if you also took steps back. Always step forward. And praise yourself when you do things well, even if they are small things.

    Re: energy: See below. I don't know what your calorie goal is, but you may feel better eating more, and losing more slowly.

    The only other thing I can say is that you do not have to create an aggressive plan to be successful. You don't have to choose 2 lbs per week just because MFP lets you. Try 1 lb, to get more calories to eat. You can always adjust your goal later, or you can do 1 lb forever -- many successful people here are on a "slower than what is technically possible" trajectory because it makes them happier, it means they can enjoy more food, it helps them stick to it, it helps them get adequate nutrition, and so on. What matters is that you *adhere* and are still adhering down the line... not how quickly the weight comes off. I'm on a very slow trajectory, and focusing on fitness, and enjoying myself. :)

    (Oh and remember that health, nutrition, fitness, and weight loss are related things, but they are not one thing. You can lose weight without making "all healthy eating choices" and without exercising. Don't create rules for your weight loss that drive you crazy. Eat some chocolate, or whatever it is you need to do. <-- Obviously while taking care to manage your diabetes, of course!)
  • saraphim41
    saraphim41 Posts: 205 Member
    Diabetes is a bummer! Mine is type 2, but I'm getting over it (using Atkins, low calorie/high fat WOE). My gluc readings are within 75-125 range now without meds.

    I don't know anything about type 1. So I can't help you with that. I assume you are already under the care of an endocrinologist. If not, get there.

    What I can and do offer is moral support. I know from about 20 years experience how depressing D can get. Did you know that D used to be referred to as "the long-sad disease?" Less so now because of sugar glut and our "smart diagnosis" syndrome.

    Please, go out of your way to find things and people you enjoy. And enjoy them.

    Read the Desiderata at least once a week, and take it in.

    Other than that, I echo what the poster above wrote.

    Chin up, smile (makes the enemy wonder), and progress. As someone else wrote, "Don't fake it till you make it. Fake it till it's TRUE!
  • angelasrescuedog
    angelasrescuedog Posts: 11 Member
    Diabetes is hard when your losing weight. I'm type 2 and through MFP I've managed to lose 15lbs so far and halved my medication for diabetes. I agree look at what your eating again and don't be too hard on yourself. Don't forget insulin makes u gain weight if your injecting. Once you start losing again you will find you can adjust your insulin and this will also help with the weight loss. I don't know what country you live in but in the UK we can be referred to a diatician if we're diabetic. They will go through good and bad foods as well as low glycemic foods. And yes see your diabetic nurse or doctor. They may be able to advise on medication. Good luck
  • jgnatca
    jgnatca Posts: 14,464 Member
    It sounds like you need a friend to tell you that you can do this.

    I am not a consistent friend and I fail all the Facebook tests for a "true friend" because I refuse to take them, but I can cheer you on. Now.

    You can do this.
  • vivmom2014
    vivmom2014 Posts: 1,649 Member
    @futuremanda just wanted to say your answer was really wonderful! I got a lot out of it. Thanks.
  • christie_jean
    christie_jean Posts: 6 Member
    I am also a type 1 diabetic and understand your struggles. How is your HgbA1C? I recently started on the pump after 13 years of injections and got my blood sugar under control. I also gained 20lbs because my body was holding on to everything I was eating and I was no longer peeing out sugar. If your diabetes is not under control, then metabolically your body is not in a good place to lose weight. Plus having steady blood sugars will help make you feel like you have more energy. Personally, I struggle with lows and then have to eat/drink extra calories to being my sugar up. Just keep logging everything you eat. Keep moving! And check your sugar often! I know type one diabetes is extremely frustrating and I often feel alone too. But you can do it! :smile:
  • rockailly13
    rockailly13 Posts: 38 Member
    Thank you all for your kind words and encouragement. I'm trying so hard to break through the struggles but it's definitely hard. My blood sugars are pretty good but they aren't as good as they could be. I went from having an A1C of 16 to now having one of 8.9. Doctors want me to get on the pump after I get it down to 8.5 but I'm worried that I will gain weight by going on it and then I will be further away from my goal. And @futuremanda your words were wonderful and definitely made me think a lot so I thank you for that. And thank the rest of you for your kind words as well. My biggest problem is the energy I'm trying to find the want to work out and be active everyday but I always make up excuses for myself and that's what I need to work on. And thank you also @jgnatca can I add you as a friend on here?

  • When began this journey back in 2009 I weighed 210 lbs, over the course of the next two years I managed to get down to 170-180 depending on the month but I was able to stay in that range. I might also confess that the first 30 lbs of that came off with conducting H1N1 a couple months into my weight loss. By the summer of 2012 I was down to 139 from being in school and running myself ragged, then by summer of 2013 I was back up to about 170-165 and I was happy with that. Then I started the job from hell and I moved...twice. Within the time I moved in February 2014 to now I gained A LOT, I am now sitting at 224. I am so angry with myself and I can't seem to lose the weight. I have quit the job I was at and make it a point to walk for at least a half an hour or longer everyday and I try my hardest to stay within my calories. I also have type 1 diabetes and so I have that working against me as well. It's hard not to just give up and say "I'm stuck at this weight forever." I also feel like my support system is non existent...I feel so stuck and I don't understand why the weight isn't coming off, I feel like I am following my plan but maybe I'm not as well as I think I am? It's also hard to find the energy and motivation most days. I just feel stuck. Any helpful hints or tips from the MFP world?

  • I know we get caught up in the should and could but I throw those out the window. You know what to do to lose weight so forget that for now and try to keep your sugar low. That is important the weight will follow after. Don't get caught up in the negative and think how your body felt when you were lighter. Stay positive do 5 healthy things for yourself every day write it down and get grounded spend some time outside and join a group do something you enjoy. Don't focus so.much on the weight and ore on staying healthy and the weight will come off slowly. GOOD LUCK!
  • T1DCarnivoreRunner
    T1DCarnivoreRunner Posts: 11,502 Member
    I have both type 1 and type 2 diabetes, and I have a few comments / suggestions:
    1. Go on the pump. It will allow a lot more flexibility to be able to have a more active life and to actually get out and exercise without lows as often. One of the hardest things will be treating lows and negating your exercise calories.
    2. When you are low, treat with glucose tabs. Partly, you should do this so you see it as medicine and not as food. The other reason for this is that they are relatively low calorie compared to a lot of food options that you might use to treat lows.
    3. Go on a CGM. Depending on which pump you get, this can be integrated with the pump.
    4. Go slowly and be patient. If you try to lose too quickly, your sensitivity will changed fast also. For me, that led to a day where I ate more than 600g of carbs over around 12-13 hours to treat lows, and that was with lower basal rates and no bolus insulin whatsoever. It was extremely scary and I was afraid to go to sleep because if I stopped eating (because I was sleeping), I wasn't sure if I would ever wake up. I doubt you will be in such an extreme situation, but a less serious similar circumstance could occur.
    5. Don't conflate type 1 and type 2, and be careful about any advice you get from someone with type 2. They really should be called totally different things because they are completely different diseases. Would you ask someone with arthritis for advice for acne? Of course not. Because they are totally different diseases. Type 1 is an autoimmune disease. Type 2 is a metabolic disorder.

    Feel free to add me as a friend if you would like.
  • rockailly13
    rockailly13 Posts: 38 Member
    @geordielass40 thank you for replying to my thread it's much appreciated. I'm trying my best, since posting that thread I'm down almost ten pounds but it's been a struggle. I'm trying to adapt to a low carb high fat diet but it hasn't been easy and I'm having trouble finding one that's easy to maintain, can you give me examples of the kinds of things you've been eating??
  • smesser375
    smesser375 Posts: 1 Member
    I am diabetic also never remember which type I just take metformin it will be OK set your goals small I weighed 352 lbs when I started this my goals were first to get to 300 then under ,that was 6 months ago I weigh 290 and everyday is on day,one step and sometimes one breath at a time and I miss pie lol but you will get through and it gets better YOU CAN DO THIS
  • T1DCarnivoreRunner
    T1DCarnivoreRunner Posts: 11,502 Member
    smesser375 wrote: »
    I am diabetic also never remember which type I just take metformin it will be OK set your goals small I weighed 352 lbs when I started this my goals were first to get to 300 then under ,that was 6 months ago I weigh 290 and everyday is on day,one step and sometimes one breath at a time and I miss pie lol but you will get through and it gets better YOU CAN DO THIS

    That is type 2. Type 1's must take insulin. There are some other types as well, but type 1 and type 2 are the most common and type 2 is about 20 times more common than type 1 in the US.
  • CJ_Holmes
    CJ_Holmes Posts: 759 Member
    I have both type 1 and type 2 diabetes, and I have a few comments / suggestions:
    2. When you are low, treat with glucose tabs. Partly, you should do this so you see it as medicine and not as food. The other reason for this is that they are relatively low calorie compared to a lot of food options that you might use to treat lows.

    Great reminder- I have been struggling with exercise lows recently and have been really frustrated with the additional calories I have been taking in! I just ordered a boatload of glucose tabs off amazon- they really are the best solution and I kind of forgot about them.
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