410 to 250 skin..

Hey guys, ( just know there are some uncomfortable things in this story and sorry if some words are weird. I'm on my smart phone and it lovvves autocorrect)


I can not seem to upload before and afters.
I started last year at 410 pounds I am now around 250.

The last time I was 250 was when I was 13 years old outweighing my dad. I never understood why I was not strong enough to lose the weight.
When I was 14 my father and mother got me the lapband. But I still was not ready, I overstuffed my tubes found ways to get calories through and had to have emergency surgery to get the lapband taken out after it slipped.

My parents got divorced a time after. I got so depressed and my family started shutting me out. Food was my best friend, i would even sneak it into the school bathrooms.

I got so lonely and depressed. I started hanging with the wrong people at school.
It led me to being gang raped at 15 with my best friend. After that I just went crazy , it's like a part of me left. I ate more and more, which meant more bullying at school. I would do bad things in school to be cool to have others look away from me being fat. But I was always the fat girl. It got so bad that I had to drop out of school. I kept hanging with the wrong crew. Me and my homegirl left our parents house and decided to go on our own (at 16) my parents loved me so much I just didn't see that they were stuck in there own world of hurt.

Me and her everyday rented a hotel and we started with prostitution. We were in Dallas at the time ( I now live in Europe which is were I was born but I was raised in dallas)

I wanted to stop reached out to my dad but he had left back to Europe. My green card expired I was illegal. I was broke underage no way to work so I kept prostitution. Kept eating kept punishing myself.



Until one day I woke up in my hotel. I had been through everything. Me and my friend were raped and kidnapped, guns to our head, no food for days . Everything has happened.


And I'm sure everyone is wondering why I'm telling you all this.


When I finally decided I wanted out of that life I decided to move to Holland start a new. Life clean slate. And I did! It was hard, took so much ... but I got on that plane..

2 years now I have been in Holland.
And got myself straight my mind .
I gave up on myself.


I met this man a year ago. And when I met him it's like my life just turned around. I wasn't focused on food. We would go hiking every day he would show me new things and it wasn't for my weight we just went because it's so beautiful here and he loved it so I tried. And weight just started falling. One morning I got on the scare and saw I was in the 2s. I was so shocked I didn't try I didn't do a weird diet. I just changed my life.


I started talking to a lot of women who were overweight asked why
Lots say I love food
I have so much time on my hands
I am a emotional eater
I don't know what to eat.

Everyone faces there own battles in life everyone had skeletons and secrets. But you need to dig those out. Find out why you are so sad. Because that is why you are eating
It's all a emotional game



Get happy with life and get happy with yourself. Only my close friends and family know about what I told you guys! But it's a important message.

If you don't like which direction your life is going in or if there is something eating away at you fix it. Spend time with yourself reallly spend time with yourself. I spent my first year just getting to know myself. I look at myself now and can't imagine the person I was && the things I did. I will never forget the things that I did and happened to me. But I can change my future.

I am 22 now. Have a loving husband and two step kids.
I am happy
I am happy
I am happy
And yes there are days that are a struggle but just remember that you are what matters

Why dwell over things in this beautiful world. All the things to see all the things to do.
Be healthy... It feels so gooood


I do notice a lot of skin and would be more than happy to share it with you girls

Lose skin or not I'm beautiful.
I have chicken arms that clap every time I put a shirt on
I have thighs that droop and my boobs look like deflated air balloons when I lay down.
But my hubby loves my body and so do I.

No one has a perfect body
Everyone hates things about themselves

You can do it !
Thanks for listening