SBF, Reboot Boogaloo, May 16th

Mary, I wish I had summer skin. I usually burn or get nothing. All three of us got burned at the lake this weekend. :frown:

Today starts my two weeks of change, and emotionally I want to crawl back into bed and make everyone and everything go away till June 1st. But I can't do that, so I will face it head on.

I have to get my blood work done again today for my thyroid. I am taking a letter along to give to the doctor that explains the problems I am having. I am hoping that may be used instead of setting up an appointment to speak with him. I also have to take Alex to his last tumbling class and then watch my friend's boys for a few hours. I wish I was looking forward to today. :ohwell:

I was planning on working out this morning but I've run out of time. I don't know if I will have time later. Depends on what time my friend gets back. Also I think running is out for now. My knee was killing me over the weekend. :frown: I may log today if I have time to enter it all.

Get over it and get through it boogaloo.
MM

Hi pebbles! My friend loaned me his iPad for a little while so I could see if it works better for me to wander around web browsing (since I need to be walking/standing a lot more of the time) - so that's how I'm typing this post. I can actually type relatively well on it, except for the punctuation.

Anyway... Backsliding a bit on the good eating habits. Weirdly, it seems like the drug is affecting my appetite, but I'm still eating just as much (even though I'm not hungry, or feel a little sick to my stomach). WTH? I was realizing over the weekend that a lot of what was going on with me was fear - frustration at not being able to do things that I want to do, yes, but mostly the fact that I feel like I have to be constantly worrying about my posture and how my body is feeling and whether things are "ok" or whether I'm going to have pain again. Bleh. I skipped some logging, but am going to try to go ahead and log things even when they aren't good choices (I have the bad habit of not logging it once I start going off the deep end).

Ok, that's enough iPad typing.

New toy, boogaloo.

Morning, pebbs

Lots to do today in prep for the trip. Also, trying not to panic because it looks an awful lot like I'm not getting a contract this summer. This is the latest it's ever been without getting informed, anyways. I have enough money saved, but. . . I want to keep that money saved. Big money worries, especially since the trip is an expense. Anyways, not thinking about that right now. My husband has some recording projects coming up, and I am trying to have faith that we'll be provided for. It's hard for me, I worry about money. I am a weird paradox. I love luxurious things, but hate to spend money.

Instead, just thinking about today. In which I will: run errands to get the cats well stocked with litter and treats and give the keys to our friend who will look in on them, edit five more pages, pack, get all the itineraries/tickets, etc printed out, and then be sure to get to bed at a semi reasonable hour. Also, I can report this morning, with the exception of some cramping and low back pain (special lady time) I am nearly pain free. So, hooray!

Worry just about today, boogaloo.:flowerforyou:

Update:
This has been a weird day. The car died on me on the way to horse therapy. Thank God is was at a stop light and it started up again. But it stressed me out and I got mad at Alex so then he was crying. We get done at horse therapy and the car cranks but won't start. I called Steve and thank God (again!) that he was actually in the area doing a job! Somehow we are going to get the car to my friend's house so it won't be on therapy property. Then I get a call from the doc (talked to him personally!) and he said my thyroid numbers are perfect and he addressed the letter I sent him. He thinks my hormones are out of whack (gee, I've suspected that for years), especially progesterone. He wants me to take a saliva test which costs about $150. I really want to take it, but the money just isn't there. I looked up the symptoms and wow, I do have a lot of them. I could just go buy cream but I don't want to start messing with my hormones on my own. I'm afraid of messing them up. He also said I could be starting menopause. :noway: That is a bad word. I'm not ready for that. He said his sister went through it at age 36. So at least he does think there's something wrong. Low progesterone can cause lack of feelings for anything so that's what I am thinking.
The chances of getting the test done anytime soon is very low unless the Lord drops $150 in my lap. Whatever is wrong with the mustang sounds expensive (fuel pump or ignition/alarm system) and the Xterra isn't doing so hot either.
So tonight we have to go try to move the mustang and get back home by nine so I can be here to take care of Jeremiah. I want my cave so I can go hide.
I did work out today though. It didn't help. I read that a symptom is intolerance to exercise. What does that mean? It means a person feels sick, dizzy or fatigued after exercise. Hmmm. That would be me. Plus I am still cramping and emotional all day every day. :grumble: Please lady time, come so I can feel better.
So that's my update. Why does everything hit at once? I don't know. I'm just so thankful that Steve was nearby this morning to get me and that Alex is no longer mad at me for getting angry.

MM

Eek!

Morning, pebbs.
Off to what looks like a rainy NYC birthday. On a plane. Snake brain hates the plane. But, I have anti-anxiety meds and a husband, so those should help. also, I found out yesterday that I'm unemployed for the next four months, so that puts a bit of a damper on the trip. If I had that info two months ago (when I was assured in a meeting that I would get a summer contract) we wouldn't be taking this trip. Wheeee! My life is an adventure, full of surprises.

Probably not much checking in while I'm away, but lots of walking in the rain.

Snake brain hates the airplane, boogaloo.:flowerforyou:

CP, I'm glad you are getting all that testing done and I hope you get the results back before the weekend!

Mary, I hope you get help soon on your knee. My knee still bothers me after a long walk or running. :grumble: If I don't do either then it does okay.

V, hope your flight went smoothly and that you are having a good time!

Yesterday was interesting. We walked to the park, which I thought would wear the boys out, but it didn't really. It wore me out though. Alex and Jeremiah are getting along great for the most part except Jeremiah broke a lego plane and Alex is not wanting to share a couple of his toys. So typical stuff. The day was mostly filled with lots of giggles and some crying. Last night at church I heard Jeremiah crying and went back to check on him. It was the "sitter's" first time watching kids there, and she said Jeremiah was chasing her around the room biting her or trying to bite her. :noway: I don't believe her. It did not fit it with the character of Jeremiah. I told his mom last night and she was shocked and said she would talk to him today about it. Maybe it was exaggerated or something, but I probably won't be taking him next Wednesday night. Steve has a meeting with the Pastor tonight about other things so he said he would try to remember to talk to him about it. If he doesn't, then I will. I won't feel comfortable sending Alex back there again until something is taken care of. I really didn't need to deal with that last night. I was exhausted (mostly mentally) when I went to bed. I am trying to remember that this is a real blessing to this family and that it's only temporary. I get my focus turned inward and my attitude gets bad. :ohwell:
I am not sure what the plan is today. Maybe that's not a good way to start the day. lol. So far the boys are sleeping in. I am thinking about walking to the farmer's market to get fruits and veggies and then maybe getting in some sit ups, push ups, squats, lunges etc later. I usually go to the store on Thursdays but I don't want to go until we get something done with the car. I am also not sure about taking two kids to the store yet. lol.

Looking outward boogaloo!
MM

Hi everybody.

Mary, that was sweet/funny of your husband. MM, I hope you are enjoying your rainy day - we have had WAY too many of them lately! It was nice to see the sun today.

I got a call from my doc on the way home from work. Mostly good news - x-rays looked fine, bloodwork was basically normal. My B-12 was on the low end, though, so she wants me to start taking a supplement. So, maybe that will help - and, the facilities guy at work stopped by and said they're going to bring down another chair for me to try on Monday, so that might help to. But, basically we still don't know what exactly is going on. Darn. I'm glad there's nothing wrong with my spine, though!

Happy weekend! (boogaloo)