My doctor diagnosed me with BED last year, but I've always been a binge eater, they keep getting bigger and more frequent and I have put on 20lbs this year alone, it's disgusting.
Today I am 22, 5'6, and 257lbs.
I'm taking a trip to New York (never been to America before) in September to meet up with a friend and see the sights, it's my first time abroad without a teacher or a parent, and I think this would be a good time to get my weight under control.
My friend knows that I'm fat, it doesn't bother her, or at least it only bothers her because it bothers me, she isn't expecting me to be skinny but I want her to see that I at least made an effort. There will also be a lot of walking and photos, and nobody likes to do either of those while morbidly obese...
I just feel like I never want to eat food again because I can't be trusted not to binge. It really is one of the only things that makes me feel relaxed and satisfied, for a short time.
I don't really know what I'm asking for, resources maybe? Experiences? Just help.