Hey - would love encouragement/support

Hi! I'm starting back today and would love to build some community support! I weighed myself today and I'm the heaviest I've ever been. I physically feel miserable, I am not happy with the way that I look, and I shy away from new experiences because I either think I can't do it or will look awful doing it (I know, I have to change the way I think too...its a process...lol). I came on here one time and saw a post from someone saying that she didn't need support and we shouldn't either and other people backed her on her statement. Granted, I need to do this for myself and have my own self control, but I need people to see me, see my results, see my struggles and encourage me through it all - that's who I am. So, if you would like to help me and be my friend in this, I would love it! Hope you have a great day!