The Honest Me

Hello,
I'd prefer to stay anonymous.

Im currently trying to better myself and aiming one day to be a heavy bodybuilder.
My Background
I was never a popular kid, I got bullied hard for being fat even though I only had a little bit of extra fat on me, so it held back my self-confidence and as a result of this I was a quiet kid. I never had any hope for the future, each day went by like I was looking out the window of a moving train. I grew more accustomed to spending more time on my own and I basically stayed indoors more than I did outdoors.
My parents were worried, I went through councelling and other methods but all I wanted to do was crawl into bed and sleep and let things pass by. It got more serious during my mid teenage years, I didn't want to do anything I just wanted to be still. I kept thinking about problems in the future I may face like financial or relationship problems but the other side of me didn't see myself in the future at all. I had no hope for the future.
College came around when I was 18 and it was a new chapter in my life. A fresh start! I knew nobody from my previous years in this new environment so I took it upon myself to pick myself up out of this prolonged slump and make an effort. I tried my best to meet as many new people as possible by signing up to every society or club I could. I met a friend through my class because he was the only one of a few lads in my course. We decided to join a gym together and help each other achieve our goals.
Present
I've been going to the gym for just over a year now, mainly doing weight training and HIIT. I lost a staggering three stone in the first few months from just simply jogging every second day and I'm feeling great! I still have a bit of abdominal fat but hopefully I'll lose that soon. The best thing to date is the staff members in the gym I go to. They don't treat you like another number they actually interact with you out of their working times. I might sound a bit sad for saying this but I got all teary eyed during a workout once because one of the staff members that works in the gym came up to me on his own personal time and did a workout with me. Ive never had someone in my entire life so far do something like that for me. Like I didn't have any money to pay him, I gave him nothing for him to do that. He motivated me throughout the workout, I was physically drained, I had no energy to keep in the tears, I felt embarrassed, like I just cried in a gym! Seriously! However embarrassing it was he thought me a lesson that day. You will be pushed to your limits and you will feel overwhelmed but once you pass that hurdle, everything will become easier.

Thank you for your time

If you have any questions I don't mind answering them.

MGM20