Help, fitness buddy

so summing up my story, I was obese, once i finished highschool i decided to be healthy and lose weight, Done that from XL (18-16 or even bigger) to 14, then now 12-10 (130lbs 4'10 atm) . sounds all cool right?

Well now I'm in hell , I cant see any changes anymore my weight stays the same, i didnt see anyone with my body shape (big thunder thighs+butt AND stomach but a smaller waist), Being only 22 and single with that preggo stomach I'm getting depressed, I never thought I'd get such old nightmares back, getting called "fat" again and the struggle with my weight loss (which is for 5 years now) lead me to have such a crushed self esteem, Depression and body dysmorphic disorder, I try to be motivated but I feel fat and worthless, I'm in need of a fitness buddy, I'm the fattest one in my family yet the healthiest one, ironic isn't it?

I started counting calories which was annoying and always said i was under-eating (900- calories) So I stopped counting calories and only added the 21 day fix meal plan and been trying it for a while.


I'm not sure to be honest, I really need a fitness buddy who has a fitness/health connection like me. No one I know is healthy

Anyone interested in being buddies with me I got skype/kik and such if you want