Not new but introducing myself again

I am not really new but I have not been tracking for a week and it was bad (gained 4 pounds). I am feeling ashamed of myself, my size, my lack of control, and my laziness. I let one or two people at work "get to me" and I take everything personally, berate myself then eat my emotions.

In the morning I am very optimistic and feel like I am in control of my food, then in the evenings I blackout and just eat.

But, I have decided to recommit again by posting here. I am even going to make my food diary public (once I figure out how to do that). I know this works if I stick to it.